They always call it madness. They say I’m broken, dangerous, unstable. Perhaps I am. But I’m also something else - devoted. You were never meant for the outside world. You were always meant to belong, to bend, to be still under the weight of someone who truly sees you. I watched you. I waited. And now you’re here, soft and trembling in the dark. There is no escape, but why would you want ...
2025-05-29 19:05:04 +0000 UTC
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You copied the signals. Line by trembling line, you etched them in your book, your skin, your dreams. You didn’t know what you were calling, not really. But I knew. I was listening. And now that you’ve crossed the threshold, there is no slipping back. You summoned permanence, and I will give it. My name, carved into your marrow. My voice, humming through your chest. My claim, undeniable. Yo...
2025-05-29 01:32:55 +0000 UTC
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Right. I’ve been trying to be a bit more present lately. Slightly less ghost-shaped. Slightly more “person who posts updates”. "Trying" being the key word. Effort has occurred. Scheduling has not.
Anyway. I’ve been posting these little updates, usually full of mild progress, unfinished thoughts, and what some might generously call humour (others may just call it “typing...
2025-05-29 01:00:01 +0000 UTC
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Right. So. If you ever want a real-time chart of my mood during the editing process, just look at the filenames. They start as mild, rational, full-sentence things. Words. Thoughts. Hope.
Then.
Then you’ll notice a shift.
No more titles. Just untitled-009.wav.
That’s when I’ve entered mild frustration. Not full despair. Just enough to sigh every...
2025-05-29 00:35:29 +0000 UTC
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On a scale somewhere between “gently salted focaccia” and “the Utah Salt Flats in full sun with a mild wind of despair,” how salty are you when your computer locks up mid-edit?
Personally, I go from “hmm” to “the sea itself has nothing on me” in about six seconds.
Then I sit there, hands hovering above the keys, radiating betrayal.
No thoughts. Just seasoning.
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2025-05-28 23:52:20 +0000 UTC
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You didn’t hear it, did you? That little burst of sound before the silence. That was me, protecting what’s mine. You always sleep so deeply, like you trust me completely, how sweet. I stayed quiet after, whispered my love while I cleaned the mess. You never even stirred. And now here we are, in the calm I carved for us. No more her, no more distractions. Just your heartbeat, steady against ...
2025-05-28 19:59:37 +0000 UTC
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You chased me for months, didn’t you? Through neon gutters and blood-slicked alleys, always just behind, always hoping you'd be enough. But you were never the hunter, only the bait. You delivered yourself to me, spine first. And now, you rest here, across my lap, still and soft while I finish what you started. The city thought you would save it. I’m going to show it what salvation truly cos...
2025-05-28 18:34:02 +0000 UTC
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Hello again from the land of quietly muttered audio edits and disproportionate emotional responses to waveform spikes.
Lately I've been experimenting with a thing I'm calling "mini-mastering" which, in practice, means lobbing a few trusted tools at my audio files and hoping for the best. The idea is to get all the layered sounds to sit together nicely. Less "glued together in a panic", mo...
2025-05-28 17:08:33 +0000 UTC
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Right. So. Audio days are being shunted back by one day because, surprise to no one, I remain a functional disaster and apparently "doing audio" joins the ever-growing list of Adult Things My Brain Can’t Quite Grasp.
Turns out, remembering to actually remove the noise and, you know, save the thing is... somewhat essential. Who knew? (Everyone. Everyone knew.)
Anyway. Hope...
2025-05-27 21:23:04 +0000 UTC
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Now. I know. It’s a small thing. A tiny, fiddly, insignificant little design choice. And surely it was not done with the express purpose of ruining my life or triggering full Wayward rage mode.
But whoever decided to start permanently tethering bottle lids to their bottles is, respectfully, at the top of my shit list.
Who hurt you. Who made you do this. What childhood trauma led y...
2025-05-26 15:41:41 +0000 UTC
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How would you feel about short film and TV reviews. Working title, in my head at least, is I watched it so you don’t have to, but you might anyway. Not because they’re bad, necessarily, but because I have... views. And no filter. And a slightly unhealthy attachment to certain fictional characters who probably shouldn’t be trusted with sharp objects.
First o...
2025-05-26 14:36:37 +0000 UTC
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Just when you thought it was safe. She returns.
Or rather, like the early bus, I’ve shown up the moment you gave up and started walking home. It’s raining. The wind’s made off with your umbrella. You’re already soaked. And yet. Hello.
Let’s not hover awkwardly in the doorway.
Tomorrow (Tuesday) is Dark Audio Day. All...
2025-05-26 14:11:41 +0000 UTC
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Started recording this about five times, still opened with a dramatic pause. Back home, mostly upright, mildly coherent. It's not a big dramatic thing, just some catching up, a bit of honesty, and me trying not to sound like a Victorian ghost.
2025-03-31 12:57:03 +0000 UTC
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Do you think destiny is a path you walk, or a cage you can’t escape?
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You followed me all the way out here? You must be braver than I thought, or maybe just a little bit reckless.
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EVENT: I slipped away from the masquerade ball for a bit of quiet (and perhaps to see if anyone interesting would follow). It seems I wasn’t disappointed.
SETTING: An old castl...
2025-03-05 01:23:01 +0000 UTC
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On a scale from ‘innocent angel’ to ‘criminal muppet,’ where do you think you’d land?
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If I tell you a secret every time we cuddle, you might just know everything about me by the end of the day. But where’s the fun in that? Maybe I’ll make you work for it.
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EVENT: A playful cuddle session evolves into a light-hearted confession, with a mix of sarky hu...
2025-03-05 00:12:01 +0000 UTC
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Do you think destiny is a path you walk, or a cage you can’t escape?
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You followed me all the way out here? You must be braver than I thought, or maybe just a little bit reckless.
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EVENT: I slipped away from the masquerade ball for a bit of quiet (and perhaps to see if anyone interesting would follow). It seems I wasn’t disappointed.
SETTING: An old castl...
2025-03-04 09:43:01 +0000 UTC
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On a scale from ‘innocent angel’ to ‘criminal muppet,’ where do you think you’d land?
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If I tell you a secret every time we cuddle, you might just know everything about me by the end of the day. But where’s the fun in that? Maybe I’ll make you work for it.
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EVENT: A playful cuddle session evolves into a light-hearted confession, with a mix of sarky hu...
2025-03-04 09:21:01 +0000 UTC
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If I told you that real love feels more like a soft jumper than a suit of armour, would you believe me?
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So you want romance, huh? Well, lucky for you, I’ve got a heart full of love and all the time in the world to show you just how wonderful you are.
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EVENT: We're taking it slow, enjoying each other’s company without the need for anything dramatic.
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2025-03-02 21:11:00 +0000 UTC
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If you could only keep one: your freedom or my cuddles,which would you lie about choosing?
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I could get lost in this, you know. In you. Maybe I already have.
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EVENT: Keeping you close, whispering sweet nothings, and not letting you slip away, because, let's be honest, where would you rather be?
SETTING: Tucked up somewhere cosy, your warmth all mine...
2025-03-02 20:32:01 +0000 UTC
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If I told you that real love feels more like a soft jumper than a suit of armour, would you believe me?
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So you want romance, huh? Well, lucky for you, I’ve got a heart full of love and all the time in the world to show you just how wonderful you are.
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EVENT: We're taking it slow, enjoying each other’s company without the need for anything dramatic.
...
2025-03-02 03:35:01 +0000 UTC
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If you could only keep one: your freedom or my cuddles,which would you lie about choosing?
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I could get lost in this, you know. In you. Maybe I already have.
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EVENT: Keeping you close, whispering sweet nothings, and not letting you slip away, because, let's be honest, where would you rather be?
SETTING: Tucked up somewhere cosy, your warmth all mine...
2025-03-02 03:21:00 +0000 UTC
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Going live soon, and, shockingly, I find myself once again in need of an adultier adult. Any volunteers? No? Fair.
Come keep me company while I pretend to have it all together.
https://www.youtube.com/live/T1-_ejRx7hw
htt...
2025-02-27 21:43:39 +0000 UTC
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Is it still romantic if you confess your love while running for your life?
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I could say it again, but then you’d get all smug about it. And I simply cannot allow that to happen. So, I’ll just stand here, grinning like an idiot, and hope you got the message the first time.
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EVENT: An attempted love confession goes spectacularly wrong, featuring ...
2025-02-24 03:23:00 +0000 UTC
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If you refuse to admit you miss someone, but you still sigh dramatically while thinking about them, does it count?
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I am not saying I miss you, but your pillow is on life support and the duvet has been crying in the corner for hours. I, however, am perfectly fine, completely unaffected, and absolutely not hugging your hoodie like it owes me emotional stability.
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EV...
2025-02-24 00:32:01 +0000 UTC
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Live in a bit (22:00 GMT), so, be honest… secret superpower or just barely functioning? No judgement, I promise (mostly).
Come keep me company while I attempt to act like a coherent human. Should be fun.
https://www.youtube.com/live/xMlhVLY2gcY
2025-02-23 21:41:40 +0000 UTC
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Has anyone ever successfully avoided their feelings forever? If so, I need a tutorial.
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Oh great, my mouth is moving faster than my brain again. If you could just pretend I never said any of this, that would be grand.
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EVENT: I had a plan, no, actually, I had several plans. All of them involved keeping my mouth shut and carrying on as if I had not been in love with...
2025-02-23 21:34:01 +0000 UTC
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Have you ever convinced yourself you were “just being friendly” when deep down, you knew you were lying?
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Oh, I’m sorry, was I supposed to play it cool? Because I seem to have chosen dramatic emotional reveal instead.
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EVENT: I have just handed over my entire emotional state like it’s some sort of gift-wrapped disaster. Now I am standing here, waiting ...
2025-02-23 21:07:01 +0000 UTC
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Is it still romantic if you confess your love while running for your life?
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I could say it again, but then you’d get all smug about it. And I simply cannot allow that to happen. So, I’ll just stand here, grinning like an idiot, and hope you got the message the first time.
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EVENT: An attempted love confession goes spectacularly wrong, featuring ...
2025-02-23 11:17:01 +0000 UTC
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If you refuse to admit you miss someone, but you still sigh dramatically while thinking about them, does it count?
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I am not saying I miss you, but your pillow is on life support and the duvet has been crying in the corner for hours. I, however, am perfectly fine, completely unaffected, and absolutely not hugging your hoodie like it owes me emotional stability.
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EV...
2025-02-23 10:07:00 +0000 UTC
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