Sorry For the long Absence...

I'm really sorry, for my long Absence ... My last post was on 20.07.2022... From that day up to today... Many things had happened once again. Not to say that i had it harder than anyone else, because I'm aware that many more people out there, who have it harder or are in a more worst Situation than i am... But as always everything have its own explaination.... I was simply burnt out and overwhelmed by my own Situation. After the 20th of July 2022. I attended at the party of my elder sister in Austria, because she got married. The entire travel aka "Vaccation" to Vienna + the stay and many many more stuff was paid with me.... yeah, i could have said no, but its the "family". To make the entire story short (otherwise it will become longer than a Novel) - it was a mental nightmare, the time with the entire family was good and very heartwarming. but if you have to travel and visiting many places, with an auntie who have dementia .It is another thing, you have to take care of that person 24/7. -You can't sleep at night, because that person wakes up in middle of the night (2am-4am, even after you had a hard day and this is not only happening within that vaccation, i mean it happens in general) - telling and explaining does not help at all, she forgets everything within few minutes. - there are many many more stuff..... but not going to tell everthing, because i would only make it look like that i am bad mouthing about my auntie. - Which am not, because I still love her, she is part of my family, and it is not like that she chose to become like this. And i will continue as much as possible to make her smile everyday with the help of the Ikea Shark(s). (more below) - after that "vaccation" i was even more burnt out than before the time in Austria... and on top i was broke.... my finances did not look well. (as expected if one person have to stem for 4 people) - I couldn't even hire the writers on Fiverrs to write fanfictions for the Fanfiction corners. - The 2nd Job i have...The work at the beverage store, wasn't getting any easier for me, because it was summer, and workload nearly doubled... - I noticed with the help of Thunder Emperor, that i still have many ideas in my head, but my physical body was just in no condition to take or do more work. - I recovered a little from all the stuff above, as it became fall, by watching animes, played games (I love Xenoblade Chronicles 3) and my personal favourite anime of 2022 was suprisingly a not sci-fi related anime with robot girls.... It was "My dressup Darling" and the worst anime of 2022 for me was "Girls/Dolls Frontline" the only anime which was more shittier was "Ex-Arm"-anime adaptation.... - My sis came to visit us in October, and my cousin from Hong Kong with his entire family. - there was some (un)pleasant family matters to discuss... and i got even more depressed. - I ordered a Ikea Shark "Blahaj" for the daughter of my cousin (My niece) but it arrived late... just 15 min after they left for the airport, the delivery man arrived. At first i didn't know what to do with it. but through starring at it, it somehow became one of my mental pillar of support... - Mid November 2022, i had to decide to make some back log or do some Gift-Arts for those close people who kept me sane, those who prevented me from a mental break down. (All the pics can be seen above) - Done a lot of Illustrations until christmas, where my Sis came to visit us with her husband. - Just glad that i could safe-up some money to pay all the presents/gifts for everyone. I got a flashback of my own past, a time where i was not even be able to by 10€ gifts for my 2 Nephews and 1 Niece.... gosh.... - Got a mental hit after realizing that Company (beverage store) gave me 600€ christmas bonus, but the friggin gouverment took 400€ from that amount as tax... - I got pretty angry and upsetted ... emotional outburst... after all the tax stuff.... because the Tax office sent me a bill of anonther 766€... - nonetheless i got over it because of friends and my family. - January 2023 it began with me having a flu... just was happy that it wasn't Covid (again) Even if it is now mid January.... and i am so friggin late... I wish everyone a belated Happy Merry Crhistmas and Happy New Year. May 2023 become a happier year for everyone. I recovered more ore less, I'm not in a perfect condition, but still i want to give something back to you all.