A Very Long Patreon Update

I wanted to begin with a very earnest thank you for the continued support. If you think a buck or two a month isn't helping me out you would be relatively mistaken. The money from my patreon has been helpful many times, from covering emergency expenses to just basically feeding me. So yeah, despite the lack of updates, to have that continuous help has been pretty much a godsend. Thank you a ton.

Now onto the update. Its going to be really long. Like, 5 parts long. Please bare with me while I go into extreme detail on pretty much everything. I'll be breaking them up with titles and cute pictures so you can easily scroll to a subject you're particularly interested in learning about.  And with that....

Part 1 - The Burnout

Yeah I totally burned out. I chalked it up to being lazy for a while, but after some time to think and really take in what was going on with me I saw that yeah, I had managed to put just the most incredible amount of pressure and stress on myself and it ultimately put me down. It was a combination of wanting to get more and more done, failing at a bunch of things, not taking time off for myself, and overall just working until I realized I wasn't even posting things. I was just making tons of art but scrapping it, I was making like 4 or 5 versions of pictures and tossing them because I hated how they looked and when you spend all your time hating your work you, surprisingly, get into a bad mood and it all goes downhill from there. It went on for months until right around the New Year I was just fed up with life itself, not even thinking that maybe its because I didn't take a genuine actual break.

It went on for way longer than I feel happy admitting, about 8 months. I want to say a major turning point was around the start of summer 2020 when things where messed up from the pandemic, every schedule was through the window, plans fell through for potential work, I was seeing people even less than before, and was behind on commission work. I just sat back and realized I was falling out of love with art, and that's what made me accept that this was truly a burnout. When I spent a week just dreading picking up my tablet, I knew I couldn't pretend like it was anything else. I was sad, upset, depressed, the whole deal you go through when the thing that brought you joy in life stops doing so and makes you actively frustrated. I've taken a few baby steps to get back in the groove, but I'm very much still on the recovery end of that massive stretch of time where I was forcing things. 

The burnout was very much instrumental in a lot of the delays, and I gotta accept the responsibility for that. Sure, there are some outside stressors that make the need to work on a lot of things at once an intense thing, like food and clothing and stuff, but I had ample opportunity to see that I was pushing myself way too hard for way too long, and the result has set me back by like a year. And that backwards step in progress is something I'm solely to blame for. I'm sorry to everyone that's been waiting for things from me for so long. I'm going forward with a renewed sense of self awareness and attempting to be more healthy and vigilante about my art output. Please bear with me!

Part 2 - The Bettsy Drive

The short of it: I'm redoing it. 

The long of it: I really wasn't keen on how it was going. See, when it was simple donations like the original drive with Doops, it reached its goal quickly, but I was still in the mood for a general progression time image set. When I started the one for Bettsy, the idea was still there but I felt like it wasn't as well thought out a premise or concept as it could have been. Then the drive hit like an insane number of support/donations and I felt if I was going to do the drive the amount of pics (about 5) wouldn't accurately portray things, like not enough bang overall for the bucks. Coupled with the burnout, it just led to me wanting to start things over and over and well, that spiraled into a few scrapped progress pieces and not much else. During the time of my recovering, I've finally work-shopped it to a comic concept. It'll still feature Maggie, as the last update mentioned.

In the revised version, Bettsy and her roommate, low on cash for the increased rent, find work at a cake shop. The shop is of course run by Maggie, who has some ulterior motives with their employment and her plans to 'expand' the business

I don't have much in the way of updates on this new plot version just yet, but I was going to update patreon with progress as it went on. I've also included the scrapped pieces and sketches I got done below, featuring Sadie instead. Yknow, just in case you wanted to check out the old junk 

Part 3 - Projects, Old and New

Many many years back I made a character named Rosa, who is the main character in a short lived series I Am A Demon, a small chronicle of a demon girl living in a city. After struggling a bit with what kind of character I specifically wanted her to be, I put most of the ideas I had for her out to pasture. I've wanted to revisit the concept for a while since the last time I made something with her was pretty rough and, with time permitted, I plan to pursue making her a fully fledged ongoing series. So there will be a bit more Rosa content going forward, and her personality is also going to undergo a bit of a change, so there's not much reason to bring up how she was before. She'll be this months prerequisite "spooky content" so maybe around Tuesday you can see more of her shenanigans, with updated reference sheets and things.

I'm also working on a different idea for a story with a vore focus called The Maneater. The plot is pretty concrete at the moment, and its in the scripting phase. The plot is transformation, vore, pregnancy, and oviposition focused so its going to be nuts when I get to it. I've been uploading sketches of the titular character on my twitter, and I feel like the small stature will make for some really good size content.

Those two and the Bettsy content are my main focus for now. I have a few more series and overall concepts I want to explore, but I'll be putting them on the backburner for the moment. One particular one being Monster Complex, a really good collaboration I was working on with Codecasual that never seemed to get off the ground about a group of broke monster girl roommates just trying to make things work. I like these kinds of slice of life type projects and always want to do a few more, but I gotta keep things simpler as we take it a bit easy. It may be TBD but it and many other projects are definitely going to happen and I'm going to be as vigilant as possible with the updates on all these

Part 4 - Where There's Preg, There's Dwps

Even with the burnout subsiding, I've gotten a few asks and questions relating to whether or not I still do pregnancy stuff. To me, the question seemed absolutely asinine like OF COURSE I do, I've kind of built myself around this concept. But I looked over my work and the time between content and it really does look like I haven't made nearly as much pregnancy content as I used to, so its actually a totally fair question to ask. My interest in all things gravid hasn't stopped, I can assure you, but I think I'm a little low on ideas that spark a genuine interest in doing something new. With the breast pregnancy series I started, I was hit with a wave of inspiration from a pregchan thread and ever since, I can't say I've gotten another BOOM kind of feeling you know? I can always expand on the breast pregnancy lore and nonsense but beyond that, I'm just in a bit of a standstill when it comes to making regular ol' preggo bellies. I don't really want to push the envelope or test the limits of whats sexy and what isn't, but I do want to bring something new to the table every once in a while.

I'm keeping an eye on changing trends and new types of things going down among the pregnancy and alternative pregnancy communities and while ball pregnancy seems to be on a slow rise along with the hypersperm stuff, I'm going to wait before jumping into those genres. Another thing I haven't really done is just...birth in general. I don't recall ever making any kind of genuine labor and birthing pictures, which isn't so much a deliberate oversight as it is just me focusing extremely close on pregnant bellies more than the end results. If its something people want to see more of, I can try to oblige every now and then. I'm pretty open to any suggestions for pregnancy related content, so don't feel afraid to make some suggestion her or on twitter if you see something that you think might get that motor running.

Part 5 - Only Time Will Tell

Adult content is in a very precarious position right now. As more and more online spaces get squeezed to fit the more generalized PG-13 limits, adult content creators are struggling to really stay afloat with just their adult content. It's becoming harder to just be someone who makes and sells content meant for sexual purposes, with site guidelines folding to the pressures of the likes of Paypal, actual laws being passed that suppress the kind of sex work you can monetize, and just the outrageous nonsensical damn near puritanical diehards online with nothing better to do than harass artists. Even with all that, I still like it.

I like making sexy, kinky nonsense. I like learning new forms and changing things to be as interesting as possible, as titillating as can be, just absurd and also cool. I didn't get into this type of artwork because it was easy or to make a couple bucks quick and easy. I do this stuff because I like it, and a lot of artists I know are the same. We just want to unabashedly make pure horny nonsense and maybe get a bit of support for it because people are willing to give us money to keep the party going. 

But that's just in regards to purely adult content. I do have other ambitions outside the whole "pregnancy artist" thing. I do genuinely want to make other, out there things that aren't strictly porn based. I want to do something provocative and interesting and gore filled. I want to make something with a bunch of super powered people ala XMEN. I want to do cheesy romantic nonsense. I have a ton of ideas! I'm an artist after all!

I don't think I'll get to do or even fully pursue every idea that comes through my brain, and my ambitions to make like, actual published media you can pick up at your local library is kind of far just based on my skill level in all areas. But...who knows, The future is uncertain as hell, there's no guarantee of when or where I'll be in five, ten, or fifteen years from now. You might see me in the credits for a video game and you'll look back and say "dang I jerked it to their preggo content!"

That's my roundabout way of saying that while I'm doing NSFW stuff primarily now, I might make some shifts to make more tame stuff, forging a portfolio of things that'll help me get my foot in the door to other industries in the future. I hope the support from here will last through to whatever happens going forward.

And that's pretty much all I have for this update. Sorry its so long winded but just randomly posting all sorts of new content with no explanation seemed a bit weird. I wanted to let you all know where things stood currently. I can't promise that post burnout things will be 100% the same as they were but...I don't think I want them to be. I want to move past that old era and maybe bring things to a new level. Again, thanks for the support this last year, in spite of it all. I'm not too big on exclusive content, but we'll see how things go as I start making these comics

Thanks for reading!