Health updates

For the third day in a row we’ve been running between doctors. A few nights ago, I woke up in the middle of the night with hellish pain in my lower stomach, I was vomiting, my blood pressure dropped to 50/30, and I honestly thought I was going to die. I couldn’t even call out to wake Mark, I was just lying on the bathroom floor, waiting for it to pass 🙈

Today it was finally confirmed I have endometriosis. Most likely I’ve had it all my life, since my periods have always been unbearably painful. Now I’ll start taking Visanne to reduce the cyst and pain. The doctor told me: “The pain from endometriosis is much more worse than giving birth.”

And yet, with this pain, plus my constant muscle pain, I still manage to hike mountains where completely healthy, sporty people can’t even get to the top 🙈

But the bigger problem: my CRP is almost 40 again, I feel awful all the time, my stomach is swollen just like before my heart tamponade. We did an ultrasound- no fluid, no blood, but once again the doctors have no idea what’s happening. They just said: if it gets really bad, I should rush to the ER and stay in hospital under observation.

Sometimes my life feels like an endless circle of hospitals and doctors. Last month we already ended up with zero money because of these medical costs. And on top of that, both of our cats needed dental surgery ($600 each 🙈). Insurance companies also refuse to insure Masya because he’s too old and had FIP before.

Covid also changed my life in a way I could have never imagined… But so many people ended up disabled after it, unable to walk or even breathe on their own. So in a way, I can say I’m still relatively lucky…

I truly believe that when life gives you very difficult challenges, it’s actually a sign that the Universe loves you deeply, It wants you to learn, to change, and to become stronger 🤍

That’s why I ask to don’t feel sorry for me. I know it’s hard, even Mark tells me almost every day how sorry he feels for me, and I always ask him not to. Because pity drains the person you feel sorry for. But support and faith in them, that’s what gives them the wings to move forward ✨