Exhaling The Evil - spending all your time trying to be so good, itβs gonna wear you down to a nub. Due for a purge, burn off the world, go somewhere hot and exhale the evil. A recurring thought I have in the steam room π§ but really being tightly wound and trying to do everything by the book and βrightβ has no more guarantee of succeeding than fucking up in your own terms.
I actually believe coloring in lines, βtrying to be so goodβ, is a detriment to whatever goal you are trying to achieve because itβs a defined comfort zone. Itβs a rigged game regardless so even if you think you are doing everything proper, youβre at the mercy w whoever said that was the proper way, who set the game rules. Like, these are the gender roles and husband/ wife roles, so conform.
Werner Herzog said all handshake deals are great and fulfilled, and all paper contracts nice and legal are a disaster. A model friend once told me she fainted at school and was charged $14k for a hospital which she worked her ass off to pay, and I was like you donβt have to pay thatβ¦ itβs not just evil people who disregard rules and modes of conduct- everything is a rigged, constructed game and when you know that, failure doesnβt mean what it did before. Anyways, a very healing, forgiving song.