Write down recent actions and the reasons for them.

Since this post contains so much that is so meaningless to you all, I will post a rough draft of an illustration that I plan to draw in the future along with it.

Make appropriate notes about what you have done or thought about recently.

I set up a payment account to become a paying member of Pornhub, which I wasn't really interested in because the pornstars I support have indicated that they may resume their activities on pornhub. I'm not a man of action, but I knew I could act properly at times like this lol.

I also decided not to use the name "hiramedousa" in my user name on social networking sites that I use as a regular user, not as a creator. I've realized how foolish I am to think that I deserve special treatment. It's funny how I usually say, "I don't like to be treated special," yet I'm pressuring people by mentioning my name. In the first place, it's none of the creators' business who I am. I thought I should be properly aware that I am one of many fans.

I deleted my Twitter account. The reason is that I have been mentally weak due to a series of bad things that have happened recently. When I am mentally weak, I tend to want someone to listen to me, and I tend to mumble unnecessary things on Twitter. After I tweeted something unnecessary, I was driven into a mental corner even more, so I deleted my account in advance to avoid such a situation. Well, I said a series of bad things happened, but all of them are just the result of my behavior, so I just hate myself.

As you all have probably noticed, I recently made some changes to my fan club postings. One of the changes I made was to add an extra cartoon. Actually, I wanted to finish a fanzine that I had been in the process of drawing about three years ago, and as part of that process, I thought I would practice my manga expression by drawing an extra manga. Also, I am the type of person who is attracted to "relationships," and one drawing is not enough to fully express that, so I decided to add omake manga to convey what I wanted to express. The other thing is..., I was still avoiding manga expression because of the stress of the language barrier existing and not being able to translate it correctly. But with everyone's help, I could try to express myself even if it was wrong.

It's not at all coherent, but I'll post it as is without rereading it.