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I was informed today about one of my parents’ passing and I have to travel asap to at least make it to the funeral. It happened swift and I was in a phone call with my sister as they went from critical condition to now. A combination of a clogged artery and breathing difficulties due to covid as far as I know.

It’s been a super fucked up month. The sudden need to move prevented us from seeing my family as planned, and even if we have it would’ve been too late anyway. I still can’t fully process this whole thing and by now it’s been 7 years that I’m away from my family so emotions were high already, but this put it on a whole new level.

My husband cannot come with me, because life just has to make things harder for us both, but I am very lucky to have him backing me up and waiting for me to return.

I’ve been trying my best to keep up with work and balance myself, but it’s really not been working this month and right now I fully realize, I can’t keep pushing. I need to focus on myself and my family and just go. Grieve, face my fears and demons that built up through these years, let all the changes hit me like a truck and just let go of all the emotional turmoil I’ve bottled up.

There’s been a fuckton of weird coincidences and a lot of irony in everything. It’s gonna take time to really process and digest it all, but life played out this way and I’ll try to make the best of it. It’s a terrible price to pay, but this event is forcing me to just go and do what I’ve needed to do for so long. So there’s that silver lining. I’ll be happy to see my relatives and we can all cry together.

I do not want to make any promises and I don’t know what will happen once I arrive to my family. Whether I’ll be locked up in quarantine and find escapism in work, or it’ll be running around like crazy, barely finding time to do anything. So I will not make promises. For certain however:

-delays in patreon rewards -my highest priority, I am so so terribly sorry, but this month has been extraordinary..-

-NO new commissions. DO NOT pay me ahead for any work accepted. I DO NOT want to think about obligations and owing even more work right now. if you want to remove a future pledge DO IT NOW please. I’ll really need the finances to help my husband staying back, but I'll likely not be able to work until everything just settles down

-irony of life has it, comic pages are unaffected and will be posted as usual. I worked ahead a ton. Even wrote a whole new painfully relatable arc before everything transpired and it’s been EERIE..

-I’ll actually take things at my own pace. Try to rest and heal. I’ve been fighting it for too long. Continue to cope through working on my project, writing, fleshing out character arcs and understanding myself and my personal needs.

Please, just enjoy the project as if this didn’t happen. It affects me, but I don't want it to affect my work here. I always appreciate the feedback, this project and writing, drawing it really helped me cope with a lot already and it’ll likely be my safe heaven now too. 

I appreciate the understanding, condolences and well-wishing, I know it is sincere as a lot of you have shown nothing but kindness to me all this time, but right now I don’t want to talk about this or constantly be reminded of it. Phone has been going off all day already and I’m exhausted. My mind needs a break.

Please take care everyone and thank you so so much for being by my side through all these years and making everything possible.