Mermaid Azura
Added 2023-12-13 03:13:24 +0000 UTCI stared at the empty canvas for more than an hour, trying to come up with something to draw for my own amusement. I almost gave up, when I remembered Little Mermaid and just did a mermaid Azura. Or maybe she is a maormer? I don't remember if they are actual mermaids or just water elves.
I must admit I have been feeling a bit depressed over my art lately. I love drawing, but I feel stuck. I didnt manage to start studying like I proposed, and instead I'm just (trying) pumping more drawing hours.
I know I have improved compared to last year, maybe compared to the start of this year. I feel more confident and comfortable with positioning the female figure. But I still feel held back my gesture, by the anatomy. I still struggle really hard with faces, and I feel like they look good because I just draw the same every time.
I know how to solve all of this, of course. Eat better, sleep better, exercise my body, and then administer my time properly. Maybe draw for "work" for 6 hours, and dedicate 2 hours to watching courses and then practicing my drawing skills? I could include "drawing for fun" hours here and there as a reward for achieving stuff and getting my house cleaned. I also need to cut back on gaming a bit.
I know this kind of rant is not what you signed in for, but I'm comfortable to share it with all of you. The struggles I face, as an artist specifically. It makes me sad, but also very hopeful. I'm very hopeful that I can become something greater than I could ever believe.
You wouldn't be here if I didn't had what it takes. And I will get there, one drawing at a time.
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Thank you, this is all sound advice. Staying stuck in the same place really is my biggest fear. I did started seeing a psychologist lately, and interacting with other artists really is something that would do me some good.
Rato Pombo
2023-12-14 10:54:25 +0000 UTC"I didnt manage to start studying like I proposed" "Eat better, sleep better, exercise my body, and then administer my time properly. Maybe draw for "work" for 6 hours, and dedicate 2 hours to watching courses and then practicing my drawing skills?" You need help bro, you sound a bit similar to my rut days. Goals upon goals failed, maybes and no clearcut career path in the future, with professional courses/teachers. Failure is normal part of life, but you need to build your day better, learn from your failed short term goals, not wallow on it and only posting about crying. In my rut days, I didn't have much to lose if I didn't try, my parents aided me unconditionally, until my father had enough, his confident and bit cruel push was eye opening. I think you got comfortable after getting enough money from subscribers, but getting satisfied on this level and staying there is surely leads to irrelevance and slow attrition of your fans. You need to put yourself out "there" in terms of artistic skill and development, personal management and motivation. Go to a psychologist, visit a career adviser, join a creative drawing course that embarrasses you or fails you if you don't follow the required steps they outline to succeed in going ahead in their curriculum. You need outside relevant connection to get back joy of drawing and exploring by learning, otherwise you obscure yourself and get isolated, you need a likeminded group, preferably artists who successfully learn and level themselves so that you can do that too with that supportive network. Good luck bro, hope you don't get stuck and lose the subscribers you already have, but take a step, as standing still and procrastinating, then wallowing on the ouroboros of the learned helplessness is more dangerous than daring self-development and losing your footing momentarily.
Patkánygalambművészet
2023-12-14 07:31:48 +0000 UTCI have toyed with the idea of taking a "vacation" month, where I dont take any commissions and I draw whatever I want with no pressure to post it here, maybe not draw anything for a few days. It's something I can try to negotiate with the rest of the patrons for next year. And yeah, that was a picture of my drawings on the wall of my tiny bedroom from college! I had a lot of fun doing those drawings, drawing on walls has a very different and nice feeling.
Rato Pombo
2023-12-13 10:56:15 +0000 UTCHey rato, I write for a living and I've also been in a bit of a slump lately. It really sucks trying to be creative when you are just not in a flow state. I find myself very easily distracted when working lately. It's frustrating when you just don't feel in the right head space but you have to do it anyway because it's your work. Why not take a break from posting art if that's a stressor? Draw doodles or sketches in your free time but don't worry about showing it to anyone. I can only speak for myself, but Im subscribed to your patreon bc I like your art and want to throw you a few bucks; I don't feel like you should be obligated to produce any extra art for me. Also unrelated but Semi-related, a couple months ago I think you posted a picture of your college wall that you made a mural on, and I thought that was really cool. If that was you that posted it
Ron
2023-12-13 06:51:12 +0000 UTC
