49 - Despair of Fear

=== God of Fear POV ===

Shit, shit, shit, fuck!

Who is that son of a bitch invading my kingdom?!

I was just enjoying the flattery of some beautiful mortals who were giving me fruit in the mouth of my body in this world, while trying to think of another way to attack Arcantor, when I suddenly felt two great forces coming at high speed toward the capital of the kingdom.

I decided to take a closer look and realized that these forces were coming from a mortal woman with the power of an Archmage, the highest level of power in the mortal world, something even close to the power of a rank 1 Embryonic Divinity.

But what caught my eye the most was the large creature this woman was using as a mount.

This creature was made entirely of divine power!!!

This damn thing was made by a god, and he sent it to my capital as a clear declaration of war!

Seeing that the woman on the back of this creature made of Divine Power was wearing what mortals would classify as magician's clothing, is it possible that this is a counterattack by Arcantor?!

So far, I hadn't found out which god Arcantor was, so this might be a good way to find out.

All I had to do was get into her mind with fear and make her so desperate that she would just say whatever I wanted!

So I stepped out of my mortal body, used my divine consciousness to control my divine power, and began to attack this mortal's mind.

At first I used only a few dozen Divine Powers to attack her mind, but when I felt the resistance she had, I sent more and more Divine Power to take control of her.

When I spent a few thousand Divine Powers, I finally felt that I was able to break through her mind.

But suddenly a book on her body began to glow, and Divine Power from another god began to come out of it, and somehow this Divine Power gave her courage and nullified the effect of my attack!

That's not possible, there is no god in our class whose deity is courage, how could he use a courageous blessing to counterattack me?!

As one of the few Gods with an emotion-focused deity in the class, I knew everyone's power that could possibly be difficult to deal with, and there was no one who could attack me like that!

Not knowing what was going on was starting to drive me crazy!

Shit, who is that son of a bitch?!

Not wanting to miss this attack, I started sending more and more Divine Power to penetrate this mortal's mind.

But the more Divine Power I used, the more Divine Power that other god used.

This made me think more and more about who this bastard who was attacking me could be.

Then suddenly a name popped into my head.

Adrian Innovashine.

The boy who was admitted to the school after the army found out he had Full Divinity.

Even with such great potential, he couldn't make it out of the back of the class.

It was common knowledge that he had many weaknesses, and just like the previous God of Creativity, the cost for him to do anything was ten times higher than for a God of the same rank.

But when he came to the school, I at least hoped that he would show something cool, some hidden potential in the deity that no one knew about yet.

Unfortunately, he was just a loser who didn't have the courage or creativity to innovate anything in his deity, so I just ignored him like the other students.

But when I thought that the god I was facing now had created a creature with pure divine power and was using a blessing of courage on a mortal to try to defend her mind.

The only person in the whole school who could do something so different with a deity was Adrian, who had a full deity, and that deity was focused on creativity.

But he was really trying to compete with me in Divine Power, while his Divine Power cost was 10 times higher than mine...!

I can't even imagine how he managed to control an Archmage of Arcantor to help him with his attack, but now that he's brought me such a great gift, I can't let this opportunity pass!

When I felt the Divine Power in my body, I only had 93k Divine Power points left, which might not be enough to deal with other gods, but to deal with Adrian, who spent 10x more than me, that number might be enough!

So I began to inject Divine Power into this mortal's mind.

Ignoring the fact that the dragon was wreaking havoc in the castle of the King of Eldoria, I focused on draining Adrian's Divine Power.

If he ran out of Divine Power and tried to counterattack me, Arcantor would be completely defenseless and I could go straight there and destroy everything with the chaos that fear would cause.

So I injected.

And I injected.

...

And I kept injecting divine power into this mortal's mind.

...

The problem was that no matter how much Divine Power I injected to try to enter her mind, the same amount of Divine Power was being expended by the book at her waist to protect her mind!

Where did that son of a bitch get so much Divine Power to defend her?!

I had already spent 60,000 points of Divine Power attacking her mind, and according to the logic of his handicap, he must have spent at least 600,000 points of Divine Power!

Where did he get so much Divine Power from?!

Not wanting to give up, I knew that my last chance to gain an advantage in this confrontation was to succeed in penetrating her mind.

So I continued to inject my Divine Power.

Even though the King of Eldoria's castle was already in flames and all the floors of the castle were frozen.

Even though the mortals who worshipped me were already dead.

Even if the dragon's fate had shifted elsewhere.

My focus was on penetrating this mortal's mind.

But every time I injected more Divine Power to enter her mind, it seemed like I was getting closer and closer to success.

When there were only 3,000 points of Divine Power left, I started to get scared and reduced the amount of Divine Power I was injecting into her mind...

The book showed no signs of failure, and this made me realize that maybe I didn't stand a chance...

It seemed that even if I had another 100k Divine Power points to inject into her mind, it wouldn't be enough...

Like...

Why?!

How could Adrian, such a pathetic kid at school, get so much Divine Power in this mortal world?!

Fuck, the Divine Power I must have used to defend that mortal girl alone is more than the Divine Power I used to rank up during all the days of this test!

When I looked at the mortal world again, no longer focusing on the mortal on the dragon's back, I froze.

I froze, just as the church the mortals had built for me was frozen with the magic the mortal I had tried to get into my mind was using.

As if it wasn't enough that my church was frozen, the breath of fire that came out of this dragon's mouth went straight for it, destroying my church in front of my eyes...

No...

Without a church... how can I trust mortals to pray for me?!

The Teachers had always made it clear how important a church was in the minds of mortals... now my church was destroyed and I couldn't do anything about it...

Fucked...

I'm fucked...

What am I going to do now?

No... maybe there was another way out?!

There's no way I'm going to fail the test...

With doubts and panic rising in me, I began to question myself...question whether I had made the right choice in coming to this school.

Everyone always said that I should become an evil god with the divinity I had, but I kept their mouths shut by excelling in some activities at the military school.

I wanted to be a soldier to defend my nation.

I wanted to be a soldier to make my family proud...

But I didn't want to start as a simple soldier...

What should I do now?

Is my shining divinity so weak?!

Seeing the chaos that Eldoria was becoming, I knew that things would only get worse from now on.

No one would want to pray to a weak god who lost a battle to a single creature and a mage...

From now on, I'm just going to fall deeper into this pit...

Please tell me there's something I can do to fix this?! Teacher?!