Here's the second of the diptych of found studies and letters to me from my ex-wife. As written in Part 1, she is amazing woman but was eventually out of options and emotional reserves to support and trust me.
I can feel myself moving forward on a more positive wave. I'm still bringing in fresh income despite the sizeable backup of my queue, and I'm back to choosing healthier options for myself on a regular basis instead of punishing myself and feeling unworthy of anything good.
Despite the long distance, I love the relationship I'm in now. I'm proud of my partners for the love and trust they extend to me daily. But in the back of my head I wonder how things would be different if my current mind and soul was transported into my body before my marriage. Would I still be with her? Would I be a father now? Right now these questions do not hurt me, so I don't mind thinking about them sometimes.
My patrons and my guests, thank you in earnest for reading and supporting.
-J