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Portugal 2024 # Lisbon

Added 2025-07-11 16:00:08 +0000 UTC

When I arrived in Lisbon, it felt strange to see Gary again.

Strange—not in a bad way, just… unfamiliar.

My close friends know this about me: I tend to freeze up when I reunite with someone I haven’t seen in a while. Even if I’ve been longing for that meeting or dreaming about it for months—when it finally happens, I become a little emotionally numb. It’s like I need time to believe it’s real. My feelings usually arrive a day or two late. I might even treat close friends like strangers at first, just until my heart catches up.

With Gary, it was the same.

We had been in constant contact for three months—daily calls, endless Telegram voice messages. I’d seen his face on a screen every day. But now he was real, in front of me. I could touch him. And still, I felt like I was seeing him for the first time.

I know this is just how I am. I’ve gotten used to it.

But imagine being in that frozen state… and arriving at a hotel together. Sleeping in the same bed. Watching him walk around nude, brushing his teeth, making coffee. It was surreal. Even I had moments of: Wait, is this guy a maniac? Am I just a naive woman?

I remember feeling the exact same way when I used to visit my ex-boyfriend while he was on military leave from the frontlines in Ukraine. We’d been together almost three years, and still—when I saw him, even when he hugged me—my body would panic, like he was a stranger.

Luckily, this state only lasts for a day or two. Then my feelings start to catch up. And with each day, things with Gary felt warmer, fuller, more real. My affection for him deepened. Slowly, but surely.

And you know when something truly shifted?

It was when Gary showed me his childhood photos.

It might sound strange, but from that moment on, the little seed of love I already carried inside me began to bloom. Seeing him as a child—vulnerable, full of memory and tenderness—changed something in me. He suddenly felt even more real, even more human. And maybe that’s what gave me permission to fully open up too. To stop searching for hidden meanings or waiting for the catch. To simply feel what was already there.

He had been open with me all along. He never held anything back. He answered every question, shared everything he thought, never shut down. He truly wanted to be an open book for me. But still, I was guarded. I had doubts. I kept thinking: Something’s missing. This can’t be so simple.

But those photos?

Somehow they made it simple.

And from that moment on, I stopped bracing for impact—and started really being there. With him. And with myself.