nudity.slip

Selfportraits

Added 2024-08-09 11:32:50 +0000 UTC

for several weeks now, when I am alone with myself (and this happens rarely), I have an unpleasant feeling...which I could not describe for a long time. And so today I was able to call this state the word - "Reward". the feeling as if I am a reward, and it is so unpleasant... there are people close to me, and there are people who are not so close, who constantly give me this feeling - as if they want to appropriate me, to receive attention from my communication, they want to call me "mine" (friend, sister, woman, wife). I'm writing this and I feel so sick inside. I don't want any communication, no contacts, I want to shut myself up. It's very strange, because in communication with people I don't feel this, but only when I'm alone - this feeling starts to eat and gnaw at me. All this is very strange...strange feeling... strange name of this feeling... strange thoughts thar came out of me. Maybe I just need more time alone to undetstand myself

p.s this is my first try to shoot before the sunset (kind of pre golden hour).... it turned out to be very difficult. But there are the pics that i got... i like colours, but my posing and ideas should to be more interesting 🧐 . My lesson - for early morning or late night I need to prepeare my pose ideas and references in advance.