Army Wall 💜

Wow Beee, that is a whole lot to experience at such a young age. I'm glad BTS found you and gives you strenght and joy. Big virtual purple hug from the Netherlands!

karlijn

Aaah, this is such a cute story. And how great you can share BTS with your daughter!

karlijn

https://www.patreon.com/My_Healing_Journey?fan_landing=true.....Hi army family. This is my new attempt at creating something for myself for my healing journey. Please do visit when you feel like doing so and share your thoughts and experience. Thank you.

Smruthi B

Hi, I'm 20 and I discovered Kpop through my mum. I would remember watching K Dramas at the age of like 9 or 10 and my mum would have large albums keeping all her CDs of TVXQ and Rain songs (gen 2 group + solo artist) and K dramas. However as I got older, I've always stayed away because a lot of media representation of Kpop showed only the dark sides and I judged their songs really harshly, thinking that all of it was really shallow and it was never my kind of music. It was kind of a shocking that I became a fan of them because my playlists would be made up of alternative rock music with indie bands. I started becoming a fan just 2 years ago when I saw them at the Billboard music award because I was intrigued sinceit was my first time seeing asian representation on such a large scale globally so I checked them out. So I started by listening through all of their songs on spotify from beginning to end and then discovered their BTS storyline, hidden meanings in their videos and Run BTS etc. Their meaningful lyrics that always got me through my dark times and their storyline got me hooked right from the beginning and I slowly began falling down the rabbit hole like most people. Even without understanding the lyrics, what I like most about them is they don't define themselves to one genre. You can never expect what their music will sound like and when listening to their songs I can never get bored. I don't have a bias at all because it would change daily or weekly so I just gave up trying.

Hazel

Thank you for reading, i was so nervous about sharing my story because of how it began and i have never told it to anyone but i decided to anyway, i wanted to mostly to just to share my experience but when i started writing and felt myself tear up i realised just how long i had bean siting on this and how much it affected me and today i feel a little bit lighter.

Klara

Love your story.. I feel you when you talk about guilt.. Sometimes we discriminate unconsciensly but when we found BTS, they make us better human being.. Thank you for sharing it with us.. #YouNeverWalkAlone

Yasmine SB

My BTS discovery is rather boring in comparison to others on this wall. On September 13th, 2020 I was looking through Youtube and found this video about BTS. I'll be honest: at first I was just watching because I wanted to be able to tell each member apart if I watched a video here and there. Yeah I know I was a very casual fan starting out. However later that day I watched my first MV for Boy With Luv and was hooked with the colors, scenery, sound and production of the video. I was going through a tough time of feeling alone and feeling inadequate. About 2 days later I stumbled onto the Fire music video and ever since haven't been able to stop listening and watching everything that they release (Run BTS included). I've always rooted for the underdogs that have to fight for what they want rather than having things handed to them so I could really get behind their message. I've also struggled with self-acceptance since I was a kid so a band that tells us to love ourselves and that we actually matter is exactly what I've been needing. I know that my mind is going all over the place so just bare with me. From the very beginning I was drawn in by Jin (he's my bias). Sorry this was written at 4 am when I should have gone to sleep but instead I'm writing this.

Sarah Carter

I still have moments when I'm enjoying something, then feel a stab of guilt and regret because my brother isn't here to enjoy it, too, and my enjoyment begins to pall. I don't think it's something we ever really recover from, just something we learn to live with as time goes on.

Lux

I love your story! Mine is a little similar in that I'm close in age to you, but I introduced my mom to BTS (she's 79) 😁 It's taken awhile (about 6 months), but my mom has finally recognized Jimin in Serendipity. She says she thinks he looks cute & loves his blonde hair 😆 I'm determined to get her hooked on BTS. She does like DYNAMITE because she loves disco🕺, so I'm making headway 👍

Amethyst Arthur

Thank you for sharing your story and I am so sorry to hear that you are the only surviving sibling in your family. I have lost my only sibling, my younger brother, in a freak accident. I know that feeling of feeling guilty, even though there was nothing I could do about what happened. I also know that feeling of life becoming monotone & flat. It took me almost 5 years to really start grieving the death of my baby brother. It's so unfathomable to think about not growing old with your siblings. Life just doesn't seem like it could he as much fun without them. I agree with you that BTS finds ARMY when they most need them. I am so glad to hear that you have found a new sense of pride in your Korean heritage. BTS does make life fuller 💜

Amethyst Arthur

My BTS journey is a roller-coaster of emotions of curiosity, happiness and guilt... My name is Klara I'm a dyslectic Swedish 21-year-old girl and my journey of discovering BTS began on the 26th of February 2020 with the relace of carpool karaoke. I had been working late the night before at my retail job and had had a shitty day. I was sitting in my bed and had no will to get up and no will to smile that day, my depression was BAD with capital letters I was at an all-time low I basically hit rock-bottom and didn't have a will to live I was just empty... I was scoring my YouTube feed locking for a distraction and saw one of my favourite shows had a new episode ‘’carpool karaoke with BTS’’... and I was disappointed could it not be someone else? For moths I had seen news about this band from Korea and I was kind of annoyed because I could not care less, I could not escape them. I had nothing against the boys personally but rather the hype sounding them I could not for the life of me understand what it was all about. Sourly no one is that god... Febuary the 27th I got sick... really sick... I later found out it was corona, I had to sleep sitting up because I was coughing so bad, I could barely stand my body hurt so much and my head was pounding with a headrace and I once again began locking to distract myself so I wouldn’t get stuck in my head, I watchet the video... At first, they just seemed like normal dudes... but I admitted to myself they were god even in the circumstances of sitting in a car, but what really got me was the little ball of joy exuding happiness sitting in the middle that I later found out was called Hoseok and for the first time in a week I had a genuine smile, I thought to myself “he’s funny what's his name” I watched some dance practises solely focused on Hoseok and his endless smiling. I decided I wanted to know the rest of their names so I watchet introduction videos and found out that Yoongi also dealt with depression so I was drawn to him. I found his song “the last” and I cried... I cried because someone put it in to words. I cried because someone knew what I was feeling when I couldn’t express it myself. I cried because this guy understood when I felt so alone in my own head. I cried because of guilt... I had judged these boys without knowing them and without knowing what they truly could do, and I wanted to find out what else I missed in my ignorance and so... I fell into to the world of BTS to this day I sometimes still feal guilt about my mindset. I hadn't spared a second to actually listen to them I just saw the hype and shut them down as “nothing for me” and “they are probably not that god” I sat there and judged these 7 boys on what I had seen before in western media. I have seen what chart toping artist could do and I always found myself underwhelmed with western music and I expected BTS to be the same, but I am so glad I watch that video they have become my source of happiness and made me escape my own head when I can’t help but hate my existence, they became my mentors in my journey to loving and accepting myself, a road that I'm still on but that doesn't seem endless and impossible anymore and I truly don’t know that I would have made it to my 21st birthday without them. Someone once said “Please use me... please use BTS to love yourself” I that I exactly what I have done and will continue to do Notes: Wow I did not expect to wright THIS... I was just going to write a short paragraph on how hobi had dragged me in.. And not write 700 words while crying at my memories. if you read it all thank you! And I'm sorry for spelling errors and grammar mistakes I am dyslectic after all

Klara

This actually made me cry, I'm so glad you found BTS when you did and that you feel like you're able to live better thanks to them. You're so strong Ami (and yes, I read the whole thing, hehe :))

Madia Franque

This is going to be LONG so I don't blame anyone for not reading it all lol. I am about to turn 23 years old this month. When I was a child I lived with a physically and mentally abusive, alcoholic and drug using parent (my mother was abusive towards both me and my father). I had been abused my whole life by my mother. People ask why my dad didn't remove me from the situation earlier, and it was because no.1, he worked away from home to keep money coming in for us, so he didn't witness what was happening to me and thought my mothers abuse was directed at him and that she'd never treat me that way. I don't ever blame him for not acting sooner as I didn't tell anyone what was happening to me. None of my closest friends or family members had any clue and were all extremely shocked when they found out. And No.2, he was in the mindset of a victim of gaslighting and domestic violence, who thought they'd never see their child again if he didn't bare the abuse she inflicted on him until I turned 18 and could leave home and make my own decisions. When I was 16 years old, let's just say things came to a head. I asked my dad to take me away one night so we could talk. I told him everything. He was heartbroken and very rightly extremely angry about what had happened to me and said that he would have noticed if he'd been around at home more and would have got me out of there no matter what it took if he'd known. Again, I NEVER blame him, he was a victim too and was working away half the time so he wasn't there to witness what was going on. Anyway, we ended up leaving that night when I was 16 years old in 2014. My dad got social services involved, got sole custody of me and divorced my mother and we moved away across the country. After all of this, I understandably started dealing with depression and severe anxiety. And honestly, my dad has been the most incredible support system and parent to me. I couldn't ask for a better dad. He made every effort to understand my anxiety and why I maybe couldn't go out sometimes or do something because I was scared and anxious. Why I sometimes couldn't get out of bed because I was depressed. He supported through every doctors visit and through my period of therapy. After a while the depression got a lot better, but the anxiety just got worse and worse. Panic attacks, sickness, dissociation everything. There were obviously good periods when I wasn't going through phases of bad anxiety, but they would routinely comeback and the symptoms seemed to worsen every time and nothing was helping me. By the time 2018 rolled around and I was 20, I had kinda lost all hope and was just used to the anxiety and I was existing rather than living. Then around June 2018, I was on holiday in Italy and saw the Fake Love MV pop up in my recommendations. I had never watched or listened to BTS before, but I knew of them through some of my friends that I wasn't really close with anymore but still saw their stories on social media and stuff. Plus the fact I'd see BTS stuff trending on twitter and things like that. All I knew of them was that there was someone called 'V', 'Suga' and 'Jimin' lol. I wasn't sceptical of them because I'm really not the type to judge by the cover of the book like that. But I'd just never thought of listening to them because I never went out of my way before to really look into artists that much. If I heard a song and liked it, I'd just add it to my playlists and move on. But that day I was sitting in my hotel and decided to watch the Fake Love MV since it popped up. I was blown away by it and immediately added the song to my playlist. But I just left it at that and didn't dig deeper. Then a few months later I saw one of the reaction channels I watched react to Mic Drop. I was like "Wow, I have to go watch this MV myself." So I went and watched it, and again, I loved it. But then I saw JK in the video and I was like "WHO IS THAT?!" lmaoo. So from there I did about half an hours research on them so I became a bit more aware of who they were. But again I didn't fall down the rabbit hole. Fast forward to the 28th May 2019... that's the date it happened... yes I know the exact date lol. I saw the DNA video pop up in my recommended and watched it, again, blown away. So this was the third time I'd been mind blown at this point and I was like okayyyy I should probably look into this more. And that lead to me falling down the Bangtan rabbit hole. I spent the next 24 hours solid watching all their MVs and trying to recognise them, which I accomplished. After that I spent the next week getting to know them and catching up on the RUN eps. And I've been invested ever since. Since that day in May 2019 I haven't spent one single day without them. I found their message and learned who they were as people, and over time I started to notice that my character was changing from cynical to optimistic and my anxiety attacks were becoming less and less frequent and less severe. I genuinely believe that those boys saved my life I don't necessarily mean literally, just from the perspective that as I said earlier I was existing, not living. I now have both of my forearms tattooed one with the lyrics from 'Magic Shop', "You gave me the best of me, so you'll give you the best of you." and the other is 'Epiphany', "I'm the one I should love in this world." They remind me of those things every day, and as our saying in ARMY goes... BTS found me when I needed them most (they were pretty persistent considering they tried twice before I gave in lmaooo). I will forever be thankful to them. Sorry again for this being so long, I don't blame anyone for not reading hahah.

Bee

The way I found BTS: I'm a 43 year old Korean woman, born in Korea, but moved to the US decades ago. I'd heard of BTS, but, after Psy and Gangnam Style, I was put off to the whole idea of kpop, and avoided it. But then, my younger brother died, unexpectedly, and horribly. Out of four siblings, I was the eldest, and the only surviving one. Despite the fact there was nothing I could have done, I blamed myself for not being a good enough sister. He was the sibling I'd spent the most time with, and had the strongest bond with. It was devastating for my entire family, and I went through over a year of severe depression. I could not care enough about myself to think much about caring FOR myself. After that first year, I started to come out of it, but it was difficult. The world literally felt monotone and gray. Like it'd gone from stereo to mono (lyrics of Let Go - a song that reminds me of my brother and that year, and makes me cry every time). My husband did his best for me, but I had to decide for myself that I WANTED to be happy again. After some time, I needed to find something to smile about, and I started watching YouTube videos. And found a Buzzfeed video interviewing BTS while they played with puppies. I figured that was the perfect moment to discover the hype behind BTS, and see some cute puppies. I was impressed by Namjoon's fluency in English, and that interview intrigued me enough about their personalities, that I moved on to the music video for Dope. Dancing was nice, song was catchy, the boys were charismatic, and yes, it was, indeed, my first time to Bangtan. Went to Blood, Sweat, and Tears, and I finished that music video thinking "wtf did I just watch?" Then moved on to DNA - I dug further into BTS, going from music video to music video. I binged BTS music and content for several hours that day, but by the end of it, I realized I was feeling better about the world and myself. BTS put me on a firm path out of depression. It's been years, and while I won't say I couldn't have made it without them, it would certainly have taken far longer and I probably would have experienced many stumbles along the way. It is thanks to BTS that I have found a renewed interest and love for my Korean culture and heritage. Thanks to BTS that I've gained newfound pride in BEING Korean, which, after growing up fighting off racists and bullies, was something I'd kept bottled up and forgotten, even to the point of refusing to use my own birth language. When people say you find BTS exactly when you need to find them, I'd say that is definitely the case with me. They didn't save my life, only I can do that for myself. But they did make it better, and fuller.

Lux

I'm 46 years old. My daughter introduced me to BTS right around the time Dynamite came out. I came home from work and she sat me down on the couch and decreed that I would learn all their names and faces before I got up. 45 minutes later -- mission accomplished. She was proud of me. I'll be honest, at the time my reaction was, "BTS? But why?" I knew of BTS as "that boy band from Korea" and assumed I would have to put up with this situation for a few weeks. I'll also admit I did like Dynamite. :) After that, she started playing BTS videos all day long and a few days later, I was paying attention. I decided to watch their performances on Jimmy Fallon. Which made me intrigued enough to watch the Map of the Soul ON:E concert. I watched that concert 3 times. Would have been 4 if I didn't have to sleep for work. Before the concert, I really only listened to their faster songs, but Zero O'Clock wouldn't leave my head. I hadn't looked up any lyrics before but it just wouldn't leave my head and I really wanted to know what they were singing. I was still very ignorant at this point and assumed it was a love song. When I read the lyrics to that song, I cried. I've been stagnating in life. Sleepwalking. The "every day is a new day" idea at that point was so alien to me, I didn't think I could believe in it. And this beautiful song was telling me I needed to. After that, I fell down the rabbit hole. And I discovered 7 funny, intelligent, extremely talented, and very sincere guys. I'm not where I thought I would be at this point in my life. I never finished college; I live in my home town doing what I need to do to get by. 2 1/2 months ago, I was cynical, bitter, finished with life. BTS has given me what I needed most -- hope.

Becky Nyderek

Yes. This is why ARMY keeps on pushing and supporting bangtan. This is probably why it doesn’t feel like a normal fan-idol experience because in my pov, it feels like theyre my friends, even brothers. It makes the success more meaningful.

Roxanne

Roxanne I am like you and I totally agree with you.. I love the intelligence of art in all its forms... I'm older than you and in all my life I've never been so impressed by a whole discography of more than 200 tracks containing melodies of such beauty (and I weigh my words) and lyrics as well constructed and as deep... Being also a lover of literature and philosophy, I've never seen artists combining philosophy and music so excellently; when you take a BTS trilogy, it's a philosophical thesis with "the subject, the reflection, the analysis and the conclusion"... It's so inspiring... and it hurts me so much that even today as much as at their beginning, haters want to demean and destroy them, sometimes even joining forces between fandoms to make them fail... I consider BTS as artists out of time and out of the world, they are in themselves a beautiful metaphor of a better world where unity and strength would be possible despite differences, sensitivities and colours, it's as if each member represented a continent and that the whole is a world that has managed to stay together and united... Nice to have read you... Fighting

Yasmine SB

Hi. I am 26. This is the first time I’m commenting because I’m a silent viewer 😌 okay. First of all, I am not a kpop fan. Never. I only listen to western artists. But then, back in 2017, my coworker who was a kpop fan showed me the dope mv and I indulged because I dont wanna offend her. But she was not ARMY tho, idk why she showed me bts and not her faves. Lol so i was kinda impressed with bts but did not really get to know them more until youtube recommended the blood sweat and tears mv. I was floored. I was captivated by jimin’s gaze at the very start of the video. He was the key to me falling down the rabbit hole. I thought they were really cool and all until I learned to look for the meaning behind their songs and lyrics and as a person who stans artists who write meaningful songs, I was sold. Don’t get me wrong. I tried listening to other groups. But i just can’t vibe with the shallow stuff they put out and also the fact that they are not personally involved, it felt fake. That’s why I am sticking with bangtan for over 3 years now. And I’m seeing positive results as I am more cheerful and positive about life now. In 2018, i was so down but namjoon’s mono saved me and comforted me. I love bts so much. They’re the only group who’ll have such a big impact on me. And this is also my first time being a part of a fandom. ARMY is a very lovable and very kind community. I’m happy to be a part of it. Thanks to that coworker for showing me bts. I prolly wouldn’t be in this hole if not for that jimin gaze. Lol. This is getting long. Let’s be bts and army for a long time. 💜

Roxanne

Hi 44 year old Norwegian army here. I became army after my 17 year old daughter, who has been army for a few years left home to to school last August. A combination of me starting to exercise more and needing music to work out too, and the drive to and from the dorm got me listening to her playlist on Spotify, and it was mostly BTS and The Rose. So I asked her who mas making the funny sound effects, and she sais Suga or JHope, and I’m like: Who? Only one I knew was Jimin, as he was her bias, and she would never shut up about him 😉 So I learned their names, but still did not know who was who. So she told me to watch live performances, because apparantly they were really good live. So I did and I was non the wiser, I mean they never stand still long enough for me to recognice them and the changing of the hair colors 🤭 but then Youtube suggested Run, and that was me done for. I finally got why my daughter was laughing so hard she nearly fell of the sofa, cose now I was doing it too. So here I am a year in, agreeing with JHope, that liking BTS was the best thing I ever did. They have brought me so much joy this horrible year, I now share a connection with my daugher that I treasure, I’ve learned so much about a culture I knew nothing about and I found you. I really enjoy my mornings with you and a cup of tea. So thank you!

Kari Grønvold

I have been battling being disabled since 2015. 1 diagnosis after another & it made me depressed. In early November 2017 I had a YouTube "suggestion" for videos related to the ones I was watching. It was a reaction video to BTS "Save Me" MV. I decided to watch it since I didn't know who BTS was & I had never listened to Kpop before. I enjoyed it. A few short weeks later "Mic Drop" MV came out, I watched & from that point I knew I had to know more about them! I became obsessed at staying up every night..all night long to watch BTS MVs, interviews, concerts, FMVs, RUN BTS, Bon Voyage, EVERYTHING I COULD FIND! They made me cry buckets, laugh till it hurt, fall in love them & began to love myself. I am proud to be a dedicated ARMY since I was 45 yrs old (2017)💜💜💜💜💜💜💜 I feel guilty saying I have a bias sometimes because I LOVE ALL 7 OF THEM! Ok.....Jimin is my bias & I have 6 wreckers 🤗 I never thought anyone younger than me would be able to teach me anything significant I would need at this time in my life. Little did I realize that I didn't love myself well enough over the past few years....THANK YOU TO BTS FOR BEING MY ANGELS IN DISGUISE 🙏

Kerry Lynn

That Kookie is pretty adorable! He is maturing so much this year! I'm a new ARMY this year, but I've watched so many videos of the boys from debut to now & I see how much he's grown. I see Kookie becoming a silent leader of the group in the future (he would never try to outdo his idol & mentor, RM though). He truly is the golden Macknae. Of course, I'm OT7. How can you not love them all? How crazy is it that your partner has visited my neck of the woods?! It's great to know you want to visit 🇨🇦. If you ever do come here, I would love to meet you. I've traveled to a few countries over the years and always enjoy meeting new people. If you're interested in keeping me as a travel contact, or would like to connect about all things BTS, I've started making some new ARMY friends, and have lots of room to make more. You can find me on fb, & Instagram (Amethyst Arthur). Cheers!

Amethyst Arthur

Yes, Enter is quite the place! They have have the world's largest clog shoe there & a fascinating clog shoe museum. Did you know that there are traditional clogs for soccer and ice skating ⛸?! Crazy! I even witnessed a funeral procession when I was there and the towns' people had on clog shoes with the pointy curved tip that is specific to the town of Enter! It was an amazing experience visiting there...All the best to you!

Amethyst Arthur

Tonya, you got a hug from Namjoona in a dream?! That's somethin'!

Amethyst Arthur

That's crazy funny! Wow such a coincidence. For me it's that sneaky Jungkook that comes out of nowhere and just goes POW! Oooo he's been wrecking me lately. They're all amazing and I appreciate them all. Oh that Mochi! Lol. It's been the most wonderful journey and I'm super grateful for having discovered them. My partner visited Canada when he was teenager and spent his summer holiday (winter in your part of the woods) there. He has such fond memories of his time there. You're definately on the list of must see places.

Chess Severyn-Parrish

Hello 👋 I'm 53 and live in Ohio just outside Cincinnati. I've been into music my whole life. I've seen many concerts and had many posters hanging on my walls growing up. I got into KPop after my daughter introduced me to some Japanese performers. One performance called Super Handsome Live included members of a Korean group, Cross Gene. I checked them out which led me to KDramas which led me to more Kpop groups and I was hooked. My bias group used to be a different group but I saw the video for DNA and saw BTS was going to be on the AMAs. I watched it only to see them. Then I wanted to know their names. I actually fell into the rabbit whole slowly. I was a mother who worked 2 jobs and didn't have much time. I really became an ARMY in the fall of 2018 and I fell more and more in love with them the more I got to know them. Now they have my whole heart. I have never seen another group or musician give so much and care so much and share so much with their fans.💜 They are my boys. My sons I never had. I didn't have a bias until Joon came to me in a dream and back hugged me and held me like he would his own mom. Actually he probably was already my bias before that. Seeing how he had grown and matured made me smile and his words always touched my heart. My bias wreckers are Jimin, JK, Hobi, Tae, Jin, and Yoongi.😉🥰 They bring me joy and I wish I could do something to show them how much they mean to me. I want to bake them something yummy! 😋 And I can't let myself think about their looming military service. I'll cross that bridge when the time comes. 🥺 Well that's enough. I could go on and on but I'll make myself stop. We all know how wonderful they are.😊

Tonya Coler

Wow Amethyst, I had to look up Enter, but there is a whlole clog thing going on there. I never owned a pair myself, the look very uncomfortable. I'm glad I found some like minded souls here! Greetings from rainy Netherlands.

karlijn

Karlijn, nice to meet you! Welcome to the club! I have the same bias & wrecker. I've also visited the Netherlands & am the proud owner of handmade clogs from the town of Enter 😁 Although I am not a completely baby ARMY now after 8 months, I still can't get enough of these wonderful human beings. I live for their music 🎶 & their crackhead antics. RM packing the melon was definitley one of the many hilarious moments of In the SOOP 😁 I get you when you say you're friends & family think you're going through a mid-life crisis. I just don't understand why everyone doesn't fall in love with BTS. All seven members are so unique & it's pure joy walking 🚶‍♂️ on the BTS journey with them. They are a group like no other and I will be a true Blue ARMY until I take my last breath 💜

Amethyst Arthur

Chess, my eyes almost bulged out of my head 😳 when I read your post! We're almost exactly the same age, and have the same bias, bias wrecker, & bias wrecker wrecker! What are the odds?!Although I have to say, I've gotten to see so much about Jimin through DT's channels, that's he's challenging my thoughts on all that (but not my bias) 😁 How cool is it that you're from New Zealand 🇳🇿?! I'm from Canada 🇨🇦 on the beautiful west coast, so we have some stunning natural beauty here too. I actually want to visit New Zealand 🇳🇿 and even more so after watching BV4! I have some Marino wool socks that a Kiwi friend bought for me on a trip home to visit her family & I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THEM! I hope to be able to visit your beautiful country one day...🤞🙏💜

Amethyst Arthur

I had originally come across BTS back in 2017 I believe when I was just watching others react to kpop in general. Dope was the MV that I kept finding others react to. I think back on that time and wonder why BTS never pulled me in back then. I was partially happy in a unhealthy relationship that was long distance. I had moved recently a year and a half prior and I was almost done with an associate degree when we moved in mid-December 2015. And yes I know I can just apply to a new school, but I have very high social anxiety, some bouts of depression, and very insecure about every little thing that I do, so getting a permanent job was also a struggle. The realtionship i was in ended back in July 2019 after 2 and a half years and moving before had driven my depression up so the break up just sent me spiraling. My life had ended because I really gave up on everything. But in January 2020, I'm not sure how but I either found or looked them up and I can say they have healing powers like no other. They really saved me from just ending my life completely. I'm married to them for the rest of my life lol. I basically slowly just improved over time and when my elder sister moved states she left me in charge of her dog as well as mine, because she knew that caring for them would help with depression like it did for her. So now I have a permanent job that I do enjoy and hoping to look forward to something new.

XivaTsuki(Elli)

So so so powerful ;A; I send you all the hugs and good vibes ;; <3

Katalina Muñoz

Spring Day has been on repeat for me lately for similar reasons. That song is so powerful.

I found BTS earlier this year in a search for something more positive to take in, rather than all of the madness that 2020 had had to offer. I have been an essential worker throughout this pandemic and I was definitely in need of an escape. BTS provided that for me. As I type this, I have been dealing with loss in my family and BTS has been a source of comfort for me so far. When I initially started listening, the rap line grabbed my attention. As I started diving in deeper and discovering the multiple reality series, it became clear to me that I don’t have any particular bias. I totally agree that the Jimin effect is a real thing and that Jin’s voice is so powerful. Hoping to see them live one day.

Team rap-line! And Jimin is my bias wrecker's wrecker. But hey, I'm still new to this whole BTS thing, so view on their music and personalities changes every day. Keep me posted if your bias wrecker wrecker is moving to the top of your bias list.

karlijn

RM is my bias and Suga is my bias wrecker... and bringing up the rear is my bias wrecker's wrecker Jin lol. I was never into rap much until BTS. Now I love it. I'm 51 years old and from New Zealand.

Chess Severyn-Parrish

I discovered BTS a little over year ago... I was dealing with depression still trying to heal after the death of my nephew, feeling pity and regret for not being where I wanted to be in life and came across BTS and there song Paradise telling me it's okay if you don't have any dreams at the moment just be happy for a while really spoke to me they really helped me during my darkest. I will never be able to express in words my gratitude for these 7 remarkable young men, and not just for what they have done for me but for everything they stand for and the positive message the spread thru their music is really amazing! I will be army forever even when they are retired and with babies 😂

Rebecca Beebe

Hi all, I'm a pretty new ARMY from The Netherlands. I found BTS early this year. I'm a huge K-drama fan and was already listening to a lot of Korean music, but mostly Indie kind of music. K-pop was not my thing, I thought it was for teenage girls and not for a 45 year old music fan like me. So I stayed away from it. At some point I was listening to a playlist of the K-drama Fight for my way and there was Fire by BTS. I was like: Okay this sounds nice, this must be that one K-pop band”. BTS performed in 2019 in The Netherlands and this boyband from Korea made headlines for their crazy fans and rapid selling out of tickets. So I knew there was a super popular Korean boyband, but had no clue who they were. After hearing Fire I can clearly remember thinking, I like this, now I’m doomed and will be dragged deep into the K-pop rabbit hole. And that happened. I really like the diverse kind of music BTS makes. Growing up with rap music in the late 80’s/early 90’s, I’m a HUGE fan of the rap line. And also really love their solo projects. But a song by V or Jimin, yes please! After a shitty day at work Zero O’clock is my go to song. Current bias is RM, bias wrecker Suga. But to be honest, I like all seven. The contrast between their super professional performances and their goofiness in real life really does it for me. I mean, RM with the melon in In the Soop, how clumsy can you be. I’m glad there are communities like this where I can find other fans, because my husband is getting fed up with my BTS craze and my friends and family think I’m going trough my midlife crisis. Looking forward in meeting you a bit more and new video’s. Keep up the good work DT! Karlijn

karlijn

I hope they continue to connect with ARMY for years to come 🙏💜

Amethyst Arthur

Thank you for doing what you do Maggie. Being on the front lines during COVID is such a harrowing experience that no one can prepare for. I'm so glad to hear that you have made ARMY friends where you live & could watch Break the Silence with them. How cool 😎

Amethyst Arthur

I was (and still am) a fan of another group since 2010, so I saw BTS grow since their debut~ Even when I saw all their comebacks, I didn’t put a lot of effort to really know them as artists, sadly my interest was focused on the other group and the things I did know were because an ARMY friend of mine would send me pics and videos of them. This changed in 2016 when this same friends lost his father. We went to make her company and tried to cheer her up looking at videos she liked and that day I realized their songs were actually very profound and not only the love/shape typical Kpop songs. So I started to really listen their music, looking the lyrics, their videos and shows (RunBTS was one of them) and boy… what a ride xDDD It happened that the next year I lost 3 important family members too, and a little before this happened the guys released Spring Day and for me it almost felt like they were there with me, giving me a hug and telling me everything will be ok, that I would see them again. So how in the world can I not love them? They become a really important part of my life since then. Within this years, thanks to them i strengthen the bond with my two closest friends~ I have endured a lot of hardships since I don’t really know where my life is going, why I’m studying something I don’t like among other things, but they have found a way to confort me every day with their words, their happiness and their constant strength to keep going and not give up. I have found happiness in the little things life has given me thanks to them :’)

Katalina Muñoz

I found BTS after watching Black Pink and falling in love with them. Black Swan was a suggested video so I watched i. From that moment on I was hooked. They have helped me more than they will ever know. I have depression and anxiety and anytime iI am having a bad day I can listen to their music, watch a music video, Run BTS, Bonvoyage, etc., and I am feeling better almost instantly. Getting to know BTS as individuals has been inspiring. They each bring so much to the group and are so loved. I am grateful I found them, i just wish i got to know them sooner! I hope they continue on their journey for years to come.

Amber Hanson

i am an artist, who went Mountanis over mountans to reach my dreams. everyone always looked at me as if i am crazy and i never felt understood. i struggled thorugh depressions for decades, i gave myself a hrad burnout, going for my dreams and i was at the edge of suicide. when i first heard the name BTS, i didnt pay attention. i always loved kpop but i always was VERY picky, always stanning those outside of the "formular" . at that time i was out of the fandom cus gen3 all felt so shallow, so i didnt give BTS even a chance anymore, thinking they probably just part of the formular. but BOY was i wrong. a life lesson i never will forgett. i started to hear about unicef speech, and mono so i was like FINE i check what the fuss is about! and then i saw spring day..... and then it aaall hit me at once. i went down the rabbit hole and it was their story as struggling artists that hit me the most.for the first time in my life i felt like they just... GET IT! with their songs my burn out started to fade way. and then a little later, black swan hit, and shadow, and one.... and i cant discribe any other way than, it healed my decades long depressions! and i couldnt belve it! since then, with every struggle, they follow me, keeping my head over the water to keep going for my dreams. and for that i will forever own them everything. sorry for the long you know XD

Kimia

I just wanted to say that I love that you shared this with us. It takes a lot of courage to do that. And for you to open up and trust is really inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing this. It’s amazing you where able to get pulled out of that and survive. And if I’m understanding right you had to go through that alone. You can correct me if I’m wrong. And I’m sorry you went through it alone. I’m happy you had BTS and there music to help pull you out of it and comforted you. I just wanted to express that to you. I to know how it feels to be in a hospital bed all alone and fighting. I had to do it for seven months. Shortly after I was stable and was able to come home is when o got into bts. Again thank you for sharing this with us. :)

Jessica

The way I got into BTS is pretty unique I think, so I'll share :) My best friend since age 7 decided to have a New Year's party at his ski house going into 2017. He went to private school so had friends from a lot of states that I hadn't met, so he was introducing me during that trip! One of the people who came, who is now also one of my best friends, was really into K-pop. At some point in the first night or two, he was performing his dance cover to BTS - Baepsae. As this still somewhat stranger Baepsae-hip-thrusted in my face, bam I was introduced to BTS 😂 I was alarmed and fascinated, and by showing just a little interest in it I suddenly found myself dragged into a k-pop hole. We curled up into a blob of limbs on the couch and he showed me k-pop music videos from BTS, Astro, Big Bang, VIXX, and so many others from about midnight until 5:30 am nonstop. Our other friends thought we were insane but that's alright 😁 So I entered 2017 knowing kpop. I couldn't speak to that guy for a year, not until the following new years since he didn't have a phone, but I kept up with k-pop and found my love of dancing through doing dance covers like my his Baepsae. In the past few years, I've danced with that friend and we constantly scream about k-pop with eachother. Who knew this wild hip-thrusting guy was gonna change my life so much and become one of my closest friends. So that's my fun story, sorry this was a bit long <3

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Tammy Pham

My daughter and I lost someone close to us she was 2 and we watched her alot she was a bright light in our life she was with her mother one day and fell into a canal and drowned my daughter just felt guilty because the day before she was to tired to go visit her and she started to hurt herself I lost her for that time took her to counseling took care of my friend also she had a new baby at the time so I was strong for everybody then one day we were in the living room watching number one songs from around the world and their they were all talented with these loving words and healing songs my daughter's light showed back in her eyes I became happier and loved myself more every video it's like I found peace they gave me my daughter back and I will love and support them forever....sry so long 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Josie Mccuin

Thank you I-lovelies 💜 Hi~ I'm a Korean army Let me tell you how I get to know the boys thanks to you US army I didn't enjoy idol music after Bigbang and 2NE1. And my one and only idol was new kids on the block haha Yea, I was getting old and couldn't enjoy the "kids' music" anymore. BUT, May 21th. 2018, I was watching the BBMA which was real time broacstcasted by mnet korea The korean caster said that there would be the stage of our proud boys 'Bangtan sonyeondan' and repeated don't go anywhere and keep watching it. No... It was ridiculous and nonsence to me. He said it was even their comeback stage What?? How?? Huh? Why?? I waited to see what it was. While BTS was on the stage, what I really got shocked from was the crowds in the venue, screaming, cheering and singing in korean. I didn't recognize the boys' attraction at first but Instead of it, I was shock by you armys. Then I I couldn't help but I had to search BTS on YouTube. Saying what the heck is this kids.. And I got more surprised that you guys distinguished the boys and say their stage name and real name even nick names. You guys made me get to wonder about the boys. and after that I started to watch the bts music videos and dance practices. Yes you all know what would happen next for sure once you watch the bts videos by yourself I don't understand how i didn't even heard of them despite I live in korea. But you guys made me recognize BTS not that late and I wanted to say thank you so much.😘 D.T. 😊 I really love watching BTS with you And I'm the another one who is learning English watching you Thank you and hope to see you more often 🙏

Joey

Aww, you made a JK bias like me smile a lot ^^ thank you for sharing 🥰🥰🥰

Rosie

Wow! Stephanie, thank you for sharing your story. I had a student a few years ago who was born in Venezuela 🇻🇪. She was not able to visit her relatives at that time because the dictatorship had created such chaos for Venezuelans. I am so sorry to hear about your family having to move to Ecuador. I hope there are some things about where you are living now that aren't so bad. Have you seen the UN General Assembly speech that the guys just gave? If you haven't, I think their words will help comfort you during this stressful time in your life. https://youtu.be/5aPe9Uy10n4 I am sending prayers to you and your family. I will send a few extra for your dad to ensure that he does recover. Big hugs from Canada 🇨🇦 🤗 💜

Amethyst Arthur

I'm sending you love! I wish we could all be together so we could hug and cry together as we tell our stories. I'm just sending you pure love and positive vibes <3

Annie

Hi! I'm Stephanie and I'm 24 y/o. As many of you I knew of BTS way before I started listening to them. My little sister was actually a fan for a whole two years before I gave them a chance but I think the saying that you find bts when you need them the most is true, maybe I wasn't ready for them at that time and I wouldn't have appreciated them like they deserved back then. I'm from Venezuela and as you may or may not know is a country under a dictatorship, it has been for 20 year, but it got really bad in the last 5 years. Millions of Venezuelans decided to get out of the country and look for a better life, my family an I came to Ecuador and as many can imagine is not an easy thing to do, most of my family and all of my friends are still there, my whole life was there and I fell into a deep depression I didn't know where life was gonna take me and some days I still don't got BTS gave me something to smile about, something you genuinely enjoy and it made things easier for me. Sometimes more than their music it's just them that put a smile on my face. Recently life hit me again hard, my whole family was diagnosed with covid but my dad took to it the worst, he is still hospitalized, he has been there for more than a month, we had to say goodbye to him multiple times when he got so bad doctors told us he was not gonna survive the night, thankfully he has been able to do so, he's still fighting. When I feel so down it seems I can't get out of bed bts has been there. For the last year and a half, and specially this last month they have helped me not loosing hope, and keep being strong and waiting for the spring day that sometimes feels so far away so I always be thankful for those 7 crack heads for being who they are and I know 30 years from now they will still have a special place in my heart.

Stephanie Caroline

I used to cry into my pillow before I fall asleep almost every night, then I started listening to BTS. Lately I'm falling asleep without even listening to songs. So yeah I owe the boys and I'm going to stan them for life 💜🖤

Coffeepav

Say it in your language <3

Annie

I had a lot thing to say in my mind, but I don't know how to say it in english 😅

Lady Landy

i’m sadly not as well-spoken and poetic as some people in these comments but, i found bts way back in 2013. there was a dance practice for a member and he immediately caught my eye with how amazing he was, i knew he was gonna be an amazing dancer. as the names were revealed, i found out that was jimin !! i knew immediately he was my bias, and he has been my bias ever since. he’s saved me so many times with his words and he’s so so talented it’s crazy. his dancing, his voice, his personality, etc ... i love him so much. he’s literally the reason why i’m alive and here today.

onlyastarion

Thank you Terri for reaching out. It's nice to hear from another autism mama. Sending love to you and your daughter. Take care and stay safe💜

witha

Funny story for me is how i got into bts, i was talking to a guy and he liked bts music and kpop in general. He showed me BS&T mv and i liked it. Some time later we starred going out and i started to fall in the deep black bts hole. And the stupid thing is this boy didn’t like that i loved bts that much? He got all jealous and said i was not supposed to fall in love with them and just like their music so he left me. 😂😂😂 lmao. Next thing happened 2 years later when i got engaged to another dude. I bought tickets to bts concert in 2018 (and i have never been to a concert in my life) so it was gonna be my first experience, but this dude also complained about me going to a concert a bts concert on top of that. So my stupid ass sold the ticket to another army at the time😓. This dude and i broke up a year later, end conclusion i couldn’t go to the concert and didn’t get married afterall. It’s always the boys in my life that ruin it for me so lesson learned, almost 2 years forward now and still single and happy 😂😂🥰.

Stay

My english is not good... First song is the truth untold cover is so good.. I sing everytime... I dont know is bts song.. Who is bts? I DONT KNOW.... And find youtube n know more about BTS.... Very helpfull n insiration in my life...

Yari

Your courage to break free again from an unhealthy relationship inspires me. I am so glad to hear that BTS helped you to see that you are loved, and you can heal. Borahae 💜

Amethyst Arthur

My life story is not a happy one. I was in a very abusive relationship for 3 years. I managed to leave that relationship for my son’s sake. I met my husband then when my son was 2 1/2 years old. We were together for 12 years and he cheated on me. I had such low self esteem and I couldn’t trust anyone. The only thing that’s keeping me happy are my kids. I was depressed, I had bad anxiety and I lost so much weight. It was difficult for me to trust anyone. Six years after I met someone who made me feel special but after 2 years I found out that he also cheated on me. I felt lost and clinging to this relationship knowing I’m not the only person in his life. Last year I was watching a reaction on YouTube and it happened to be Mic Drop by BTS. I love dancing so I was drawn to them. My daughter knows about BTS and she mentioned them to me before but I never paid attention. I started watching more Mic Drop reactions and I got hooked and started watching other videos of them. I was instantly hooked. I was watching them every night on YouTube. I told my daughter that I am starting to like this group BTS and she said cool. Her and I got into BTS together but what actually made me an Army is when RM said this to one of their concerts... If we helped your dream and your life a bit by our existence, our music, our performance, our pictures or videos, even ifit's not big, if we could reduce your pain from 100 to 99, 98 or 97, that makes our existence worthy.” I cried...I was thinking why is this stranger asking me to use him to use BTS to love myself...they don’t even know me and I don’t know them but they are asking me to use them. That was the beginning of my life again. BTS helped me realize that I am worth it that I am special to someone else. It’s been over 6 months now that I am not clinging with that relationship because I am beginning to love myself and BTS helped me find myself again. It’s still one step at a time but through BTS I am learning to love myself and people around me. Thank you BTS and thank you DT for letting us share our stories why these boys are amazing and inspirational 💜💜💜

Lyne

You went to THE WEMBLEY FINAL CONCERT?! I'm in awe! Congrats on making it to your final year of med school 👏👍😁

Amethyst Arthur

Through BTS music and messages, I have learned how to love myself!!! I got the strength to leave a 12 year abusive relationship and gained self-appreciation, self-love, self-care, and the ability to be me unapologetically! The meaning of yesterday is still the me of today and will be the me of tomorrow!! And I love everything about me!! 🥰💜🥰💜 BTS music saved me! Before even knowing what they were saying, I felt their passion, motivation, and pain! It helped me, and continues to help me get through a tough time in my life!! Thank you  KIM NAMJOON, KIM SOEKJIN, MIN YOONGI, JUNG HOSEOK, PARK JIMIN, KIM TAEHYUNG, JEON JUNGKOOK!! YOONGI, I thank you the most for having the courage and ability to creativity express living with depression, anxiety and just bringing awareness of sometimes the struggle it is to express your emotions!! You made me feel like I want alone anymore!! Your lyrics are so powerful and touching to my soul!! Thank you!!😘😍😁 JIMIN, I thank you for your powerful, magical, angelic vocals on LIE, and SERENDIPITY!!! I cried the 1st time I heard SERENDIPITY😢😭 it is soooooo beautiful!! When I read the English translation of it I feel in love all over again! When I heard LIE, I felt every struggle, pain, and wanting happiness in every single word you sang!! Then when I saw the video to it......... Your movements expressed perfectly what the song invoked in me!!! Thank you!!!😘 NAMJOON, your passion, determination, and leadership motivates and move me to my core!! When I see you in YouTube videos taking care of, protecting and loving your band members is inspirational!! Your production skills and writing skills are soooo moving and touching!! The skill and hard work that all of you put into your music is just.....you leave me speechless 🤐🤐 Thank you 😘 JIN, thank you for allowing me to laugh again!! Your "dad jokes," your laugh, and your personality jus brings joy and happiness to my heart!!! I love how you are just you Unapologetically!!! One day I too will be like you and live unapologetically as me!! Thank you!!😘😂🤣 HOSEOK, you are my hope and my angel!😇 Your enthusiastic, fun loving, carefree personally is just infectious!! You put a smile on my face everytime I see you. You are genuinely interested in helping your fellow band members with their dancing and motivate them to continue on!! You encourage them with such care and love!! I respect that!! Thank you!!😘😂😇 TAEHYUNG, "TURN UP!" 😂🤣 Your voice is sooo soulful, and commands your attention!! Your fun spirited life loving personality is beautiful!! Your love for kids and appreciation for your fans is touching and inspirational!! Continue to be you!! You're AMAZING!!😘😁 JUNGKOOK, your hard work, dedication, and determination is MOVING!! Your fun spirit, sillyness in the mist of times of tiredness or stressful times just lifts my spirits!!! You have helped me enjoy life to the fullest and even when I'm tired or think I just can't go on, I see an opportunity to be silly and regain my energy to keep going!! Thank you!!😘😁

Jody Unapologetically Me Weston

So my story is that my best friend was always a BTS fan, but I was close-minded at the time so I didn't see how amazing they are. I would always bring my friends to concerts and I realized I've never brought her to a concert before, and she doesn't like any other western artists so I couldn't. Then around 3 years ago I heard that BTS was coming to Good Morning America in NY, so I got us tickets there and I felt weird knowing I was going to a concert with whom I have never actually listened to any of their music, personalities, etc. So the day before I go online and watch crack videos and music videos, but I never felt anything special while it was happening so I was just glad I could at least try to enjoy my time at the concert. The day of we get there, bts comes onto the stage and I just randomly start crying, I was so confused XD So I spent that concert crying the whole time while taking videos of them like I was their fan all my life. The next day I find out that bts were going to MetLife stadium tomorrow, so I convinced my mom to get me tickets but by myself. I went to the concert and I knew I was in this sh*t for life lmao I even met a friend who was sitting next to me watching me cry even though we only talked once. It was probably the best thing to ever happen to me, especially during a time when I was lost and needed to be found.

I jenna I

I recognize me in your story. I was avoiding anything BTS because I was seeing them everywhere and I didn't understand the interest/obsession. I never listen to them and I was like, oh I'm sure I won't like it since it's Kpop. And on january of this year I give a chance to the boys and listen to one of their performance, by curiosity after hearing an actor that I like talking so much good about BTS. And man, I was so shocked. I got even more curious and started to listen to more and more. And my love for Taehyung was not immediate because I started my BTS journey mainly by interviews and that's mostly RM's thing (the others didn't talk so I couldn't find more about them). And as soon as I watch Tae being himself, gosh it was love at first sight. We are so similar, it's almost scary ahah. And I love all seven of them like my family now.

Annie

hello im 44 y. o. unregistrated ARMY from Slovakia. I am mother of 2 boys hited by puberty. I used to watched some kpop groups like Super Junior, Seo Taigi, Exo, Shinee, 2PM, Big Bang...from 2010. I liked some songs from the artists, every group has tallented vocalist, dance moves. When BTS debuted I really dont know nothing about them, they were cut from broadcasts. Than in 2015 I saw some homemade video with 3 korean girls chatting about how teachers and parents suppress (prohibited) them to listen BTSs songs or buy their album bc they have critical lyrics agains korean rigid school system, political system.... I really wanted to know what is it all about. It was around april 2015 I found their albums and also red the lyrics. I found their lyricism very brave, music very versatile. Love their stories and personaly as a mother I like their personality. I am old enough to be overshadowed and focus only on pretty faces, bc almost everykorean artists and singers are mainly pretty. BTS have unique personality, they are humble, childish, weird, funny, but they are also hardworking, responsible, natural gentlemans, true to their message and their roots. I must say i love their versatility, I know their hardships from beginning. And I must say, they are the most complete group from korea and also from the world. Every member could shine individually, but they rather stay together as a group BTS and just support individual projects, their friendship, their brotherly love, life priorities, down to earth appearance is admirable. At least a have to say, thay do not use dark concepts, naked bodies and moves, agressive...almost military beats, seductive looks to just shock their fans, to show them "we are the best", they are true to their message, mission....and it is more risky, than likable music, beats and videos with lyrics you cannot identify with. Sorry for my english, it is not my first language.

Echt Slovenka

i used to hate people who love bts bcs i thought it was unnecessary but and one day one of my friend that not kpop fan she talked about how great bts are and i really shocked. after that i searched about bts and once i know about all their past and how their became successful it is really hit me and so here i am... im a big fan of them i really love them❤️ btw sorry to my broken english hahahahaha

Hi, 23 year old at uni here! I discovered BTS in late 2018 during one of the most stressful periods of my life. I bought a ticket to Wembley day 2 (yes, THE day) just before the start of my exams while everything was feeling like a whirlwind. The concert was incredible and there was such a buzzing energy in the air. I couldn't quite believe that the 7 figures on stage were actually the members - it felt surreal! I'm now in my final year of medical school, and seeing how hard BTS works helps me keep my motivation up, but they also remind me to take some time for myself, to relax and have some fun! Almost everyday I'll give myself some time to catch up with BTS and ARMY, which I think helps keep my mental state as good as it is now.

Ellie

i remember seeing army's videos of that incident going around twitter he really is the sweetest human alive

amee28

I got to talk to Jimin at the 2018 Love Yourself concert in Chicago. I was right in front of the stage, behind the barricade. This was before they decided to make the floor area all seated. So everyone was standing and pushing. An army next to me failed. I got security right away and a lot of other people around us helped. Since there was so many people surrounding her I didn’t wanna add to that. So I just stood there and let the medics help her. The concert was still going on at this time and Jimin noticed what was happening. So he came right up to me. Asked me if the girl was okay and I said yeah she’s okay I got her help. And then he stood by me (obviously still on stage tho) the whole time until medics walked the girl away. He was so concerned and worried for her. He still sang his parts and didn’t miss a beat. But he stood by us until she was up and walking again. I have pics of him being a foot away from me but sadly Patreon comments don’t let u post pics. Jimin is literally an angel and I got first hand experience on that fact. Also I was at the Chicago free zoo at the same time as Tae. Lol I have many bts stories, I’ve seen them live many times. But the Jimin story will always be the most memorable.

Juli

I write romance novels :) Though this story will be more drama than romance

Crystal

( Sorry for my English ) actually when they first Debuted in 2013 I didn’t like this new group because people called them the next BAP and i liked BAP and people keep comparing them but in 2014 they were in an award show and i was watching the interviews then i started watching bangtan bombs and i finished them in one day and started to listening to their music and became an army.. literally my happiest moment in my whole life is attending their concert here in Saudi Arabia ( they were the only artist in Saudi Arabia history to preform in a stadium) they got me thro alloottt im not even exaggerating

Ar

Before i knew about BTS, i heard blood sweat and tears on spotify (but didn't watch the MV) and i was CONVINCED for like a good month that there was a female singing the chorus - the one jimin sings. I've been searching up who's the girl in blood sweat and tears and only understood when i finally saw THE Park Jimin

Aly

33 year old "baby" ARMY who only found BTS five months ago. I work in the health sector and when Covid hit New Zealand shores my entire team was seconded into the Covid response unit in one of our major cities. To say it was total chaos would be an understatement. After the first month I found myself mentally and emotionally exhausted and struggling see the light in anything. To pass my limited free time I started watching a Chinese drama called 'The Untamed' which I enjoyed very much. From there, as I started to follow people on social media I started to notice that many of the people I followed were also part of the BTS fandom or what I would later come to know as ARMY. Youtube started recommending BTS videos to me also and one random night I clicked on one of them and that was the beginning. They became my light. I would listen to their music and feel happy. I watched their documentaries and fan made videos of their journey and felt inspired. I watched Bon Voyage and Run and their V Lives and felt uplifted and joyful. Learning about them and getting to know them made me feel hopeful that people like these 7 guys exist out there in the world and are inspiring millions of people with so much positivity and love. I've also started learning Korean because of them and have made new friends with other ARMYs. Even went to watch Break the Silence with a group of ARMYs and it was so much fun. As someone who is introverted and doesn't have a lot of friends this was huge for me. They have changed my life in so many ways, there are no words that articulate how thankful I am for them. I guess 'I purple you' will have to do. :)

Ella

Funny story I first saw the Blood, sweet and tear MV but then I could not find it again and could not remember the group name but I really liked it untill I saw Fake Love and went that's the same group but did not really get into it untill DNA then I started to explore the group the first member that court my attention was V and now he is still my bias 💜. Because I live in Australia they don't come here and the is like no kpop things and it is hard to get March and if I can get anything it is really expensive but I love and support BTS and ARMY 💜even though my family thinks it is weird and don't understand it I want stop loving the boys.💜🤪

Vviolet

Fighting always!!!!! I also want to Thank DT for his video reactions to BTS because they bring happiness watching his reactions and how likes BTS as much as we do, lol especially JIMIN.. Thank You, DT for all the hard work you do for us. WE Purple YOU

Anna Tenney

You are very brave! I truly admire you for being so courageous to go abroad to do humanitarian work in order to help better your situation. What a shame that you were in a job where the people you were working with mistreated you when they were supposed to be supportive. I hope you find your passion in life & that it takes you out of your toxic environment to somewhere you are loved and appreciated for the wonderful things you do. Borahae 💜

Amethyst Arthur

I love your story! When I first heard Serendipity a few months back, my eyes almost popped out of my head because I couldn't believe the voice that was coming out of the mouth of Jimin, who was so sweet and angelic in that mv. I hadn't known about BTS for very long, but I fell in love with that song instantly. I started trying to learn Korean that day so that I could sing along with Jimin. Unfortunately, I have to use the easy romanticized lyrics (which are a whole other language in their own right), but after only a few months, I can almost sing the lyrics by heart. It's always going to be the most special BTS song to me for that reason. I'm so glad that Serendipity makes you feel like glitter and magic 😁

Amethyst Arthur

Nicole, let me just say how much I admire you. I have a friend who is a paramedic and I don't know how she does her job. She developed levels of stress in her position also and almost had to change careers. She found exercise and her supportive family & 6 months off work helped her to heal. I'm glad you had BTS. EMS workers are the real unsung heroes of so many communities around the world. Thank you for all you do! Borahae 💜

Amethyst Arthur

Hi. I am 32 years old Korean. First of all, I'd like to warn you that my writing will get longer. I tried to shorten it, but I failed. I'm sorry. South Korea has been a very difficult time for young people in recent years. In addition to overheated competition and low employment rates, generational conflicts are severe in a rapidly changing society. In the process, people who did not make efforts, such as fraudulent solicitation or corruption in employment, succeeded, which made young people despair. I was also having a hard time getting a stable job, and I found out about BTS. I've heard some songs, but I didn't even know their group names. However, I happened to watch their stage videos on YouTube and found out that they were an excellent group of singers and dancers. After that, I found them addictively and watched YouTube. I liked that they were young people like me. I think 'I'm not the only one who's having such a hard time. I felt that they who are so talented are living fiercely too.' and I was comforted. Next, 'those who work honestly and strive to develop should be paid justly. BTS were even so nice and cool and kind and hansome...(you know?).' and then i'm cheering them on. I used a translator because English is not my first language. Maybe it's hard to understand my writing. But I wanted to tell you my story, too. And I want to tell you that many Korean amys are watching your reactions. Always stay healthy.

April_hyo

You're what I would call an OG (original) ARMY because you've been a fan since they were still struggling to make it big. Thank you for supporting the boys & helping them to get to where they are today 💜

Amethyst Arthur

Yes! They are constantly feeding us with new content. My new ARMY friends have been saying how it's been over the top since the DYNAMITE release. We've been so fed that I'm stuffed, but I'm not complaining...

Amethyst Arthur

It sounds like Jin helped you to finally start grieving for your son. I am so happy to hear that the boys helped your family so much and that you're writing again. Wahooo! May I ask what kinds of books you write?

Amethyst Arthur

Spinebreaker & back surgery? That's hilarious! 😆

Amethyst Arthur

Fighting 💜

Amethyst Arthur

I'm 26 years old I have a happy family and I'm an introvert I don't talk much to friends or relatives or anyone and it is a very big problem in South India. It was like she has attitude, she is arrogant that's why she won't talk. I thought I shouldn't listen to them at all and started watching Kdramas in 2019 I watched Hwarang drama I saw Taehyung and thought wow he is very good actor and handsome how come I didn't see him in other dramas then I started searching for him that's it I started watching all the songs, run bts, bon voyage, concerts everything and I started to feel more alive and love myself. I really love all of them but it is and was always V who touched by soul it's like whenever he says something it's just touches my heart. I just love him so much

Sripriya

How adorable 💜

Amethyst Arthur

You were at THE concert at Wembley?! Wow! How amazing is that? I have a friend who tried to get tickets for the first night & they sold out, but she was still in the queue when they opened up tickets for the 2nd night. She said it was the most amazing concert she's ever been to and she's seen BTS 3 times. I hope I can go to a concert before they all have to start their military service 🙏

Amethyst Arthur

Before I listen to music that I like randomly I don't care about the artist.. I watch movies that I like I don't care who are the actors/actress.. I'm not a fan of any artist.. I never follow/support any of them and buy items related to them.. For me because they are in that industry they are not real.. They always need to look good/perfect in front of the people.. But in BTS I saw even their imperfection.. Their imperfection is perfect for me because its them.. I can feel that they are human too. That they have mistakes that you can relate.. Even we don't know them in person you can feel the connection... They never hide their weakness.. I became an ARMY because of jhope...I think its 2014 When I saw Jhope smile it makes me smile also... I can't explain that feeling but I always search jhope before.. I want to see him everyday.. His smile, his laughter... Then I saw their dance practices like danger, dope, no more dream, etc.. I considered myself as an ARMY 2015 my first comeback is HYYH pt.2... I didn't considered HYYH pt.1 as my first comeback because I'm just a casual fan and not aware about their comeback that time... I watched AHL, Run BTS and Bon Voyage.. Bon voyage season 1 when taehyung become my Bias.. I love his positive attitude that time but now I can't choose who is my Bias... All of them is part of my life now.. I want to thank them because of their existence... There are so many different reasons why I love and thankful to each BTS members.. All of them give me happiness in different situations... I hope I can tell them how thankful I am... I want to tell them how lucky they are to have the friendship that they have... I hope they stay strong together...

purpleOT7

Hi I'm 41 yrs old. I didn't find BTS till October 2018, I saw them on The Graham Norton Show. My mum was actually more impressed than me lol, I did think they was brilliant too singing idol. So I decided to just give them a quick look up as didn't really know anything about South Korea or Kpop Idol's. Once I saw a couple of there videos I was totally hooked, think the first few I saw was Fire, Blood Sweat and Tears and Dope. I suffer extreme social anxiety and General anxiety so don't really have much of a life, pretty much scared of everything, but surprisingly I am an extremely positive person. Still travelled for 4 months around Australia, 4 weeks around New Zealand (and yes it is as beautiful as they say in Bon Voyage 4) Travelled right down California and west Canada. Cruised the whole of Mediterranean and The Baltic. But I always have to be with family. I am not good with people I don't know or social gatherings, even though I try to push myself to not let people down on special occasions. I am absolutely terrified of Bugs, all bugs so tend to not like summer and autumn much lol. Definitely a winter girl, which suits anyway because Xmas is my favourite time of year. BTS have brought me so much happiness, in the nights I alone in my room they just make me laugh and they bring sunshine to my life. Their music is amazing, dancing is out of this world. But past all those amazing things it's their personalities that I think keep us all hooked, they are so kind and humble in a world where there is a lot of not nice people. People as soon as they know I have anxiety try to use it against me. I love watching their funny compilations on YouTube. I love all 7 how could you not, but I have a soft spot for JK. He really reminds me of my Dad and my Brother who sadly passed away last year. He is funny but so soft, especially for Jimin lol, look how he went up that mountain just to get him snow because Jimin loves snow. I like a few other groups like Big Bang, Exo.... and lately Stray kids. But none compare to BTS. They sing the best, rap the best, dance the best and have the best soul's. You just can't compete. I feel lucky that I can enjoy them and they fill my life with laughter and entertainment. And Thanks to you DT. You are great to watch BTS with. You should try go New Zealand 1 day it was 1 of my favourite countries along with Norway and America, which favourite places are florida and The Keys, and Alaska. The world truly is beautiful. Xx

Stacy Brewer

There’s already so many 💜💜💜 wow these stories are very touching 💜 I ran away from my home because of bts... 😁 for me I found them because a react video to blood sweat and tears popped up on my YouTube feed so I clicked on it.. 5 seconds in I had to search the mv up for myself. I connected with bts’ message after looking at their other songs, especially because I was living in a really toxic and abusive environment (I won’t say too much because its dark) and BTS got me through the numb and bleak days. I ended up running away by volunteering for an overseas humanitarian program because I was inspired by bts’ message and their charity and if I was going to get out of my situation I wanted to do something bts would be proud of. I lived in Europe for 6 months (I’m from the us) and while I was there I struggled a lot but focused on service for the poor. I was on a weekend trip to Chernobyl Ukraine the very moment map of the soul persona dropped and listened to the album while touring the abandoned cities there. After Europe I refused to go home and transferred to another project with the same company but this time in Mexico. I don’t know how I would’ve made it alive if it weren’t for bts. I was the team leader of 7 other people and they bullied me, stealing my bedding and talking bad about me and laughing at me all the time. I was alone and living with these 7 cruel people and with everything going on it was so hard. I vividly remember going onto the rooftop of my building every night and just listening to mono to calm me, and to grasp onto something that would help me feel like there was a reason to live. Not just mono of course, I devoured bts’ music like it was my lifeline.. in a way it really was. Throughout my year living abroad I only listened to bts, on trains and midnight buses, on airplanes and in little run down hostels in the middle of nowhere.. bts were with me when I felt the most alone. Unfortunately I’m back home and in the same situation I was before.. but it’s not as unbearable?? I feel like I can handle it, that I’m stronger. I’ve gained more love for myself and learned through bts to be a better person. Without bts I don’t know where I’d be.. 💜

M G

I was very disillusioned with music for awhile (with the exception of a few artist) musiic really sucked to me. There was no substance to most of it and the artist themselves put no effort into making quality music or into a live performances. Everything sounded the same or was a sex song trying to pass for true R&B. I was only listening to Old School music from the 70's 80's and some early 90's. I was on YouTube and BTS was recommended so I watched it and that's where it all began for me. They made me fall in love with music again and I love it all! Seeing them live was more than a concert but an AMAZING EXPERIENCE! I'm disappointed about the concert this year but at least they are not forgetting about us and are working hard and putting out music and performances. The way they share their true selves with us, the good ,bad and the ups and downs made me love these 7 talented and awesome young men so much. Listening to their music brings me joy and has made my life much sweeter. The love they have for music, each other and Army and the hard work they put in is unsurpassed. Some of these artist need to take notes!! Jimin is my bias and V is my bias wrecker but I love them all! 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

Tanya perez

For many years I was a big fan of K-dramas and the korean variety shows Running Man and Return of Superman. I didnt really like Kpop but I did listen to Bigbang and 2NE1 and songs by some korean singers especially those that are OSTs of the kdramas I watched. In early 2017, I noticed that BTS kept appearing on my social media timeline. I kept seeing articles mentioning “BTS Jungkook” “BTS Jimin” and “BTS Suga” bla bla bla but i didnt read any of of them. Since there is a Running Man member named JONGKOOK, the BTS name that got registered on my mind easily was “JUNGKOOK”. Also as an avid Running Man fan, I recognized RM easily because he guested in one of the episodes featuring smart korean celebrities with high IQ. Pre-Billboard 2017, I watched the Kdrama Hwarang. My friend who was into kpop said a member of BTS named V appeared in that drama but I didnt really pay attention. When news of BTS winning the Top Social Media Artist in 2017 came out, that’s when I started to slowly get curious about them. The first 2 mvs that I watched were Just One Day and Boy In Luv and I got impressed with their choreography in an instant. At that time I couldn't match the names with the faces except for JK, RM and V. I paid attention more to the dance practices of those two mvs. For Boy In Luv in particular, my eyes were glued to this member who for me was the coolest and most amazing. His center parts were the ones that caught my attention most because of his facial expressions and natural swag. Everywhere he goes in the choreo, my eyes kept following him. I didnt know his name yet but I remember he was wearing a black shirt with white stars. That’s when I started to search about BTS for real and started memorizing their names with their faces. I learned that this dude's name is PARK JIMIN.🥰 He has been my bias ever since. I’ve seen fan made videos of him and as those videos highlight his beautiful heart and amazing personality and talent in dancing I began to like him more and more. I’m an introvert and didnt have many friends. I was not expressive of my feelings even to my own family. But Jimin made me want to show more love to the people around me. I know this is cliché in the fandom but Jimin is that person who continues to influence me to always try to become a better version of myself. I finally became a fan post-Billboard 2017 and I went to my first BTS concert in November 2017 in Macau. It was a bittersweet experience because Jimin was injured that time so I couldnt see him dance live. Then in 2019, I saw them live in Bangkok for the LY tour. In those two concerts, I felt really blessed to see BTS in person. All of them looked so ethereal I kept thinking that they aren’t real people, but yeah they are and they do exist and Im thankful to have found them and to be living in the same lifetime as them.❤️

luvpjm

i am actually a kpop haters at the beginning, i feel disgusted by the people who love kpop. but im hooked to bts after watched ama live performance (they performing dna). the main reason i hooked up not because of the looks actually, but the relationship between them makes me feel so good, and their choreo are super amazing and hard. i stan all those 7 boys

hanisa

hmm. i have a jimin one for you. when i first started getting into bts i first added their most recent album to a playlist and started listening to it. i had no prior knowledge of bts before then. the album was love yourself: answer and euphoria was the first track. at this point, i didn’t even know they had solo tracks, so i didn’t realize euphoria, trivia: just dance, etc. were solos until a day or two later. after a couple run throughs of the album, serendipity was the song i immediately took to and loved. it was the first one i was able to recognize, and each time it played i would always think, “i really like this one.” at the same time, i actually had to see who i was listening to, so the first video i watched of them was their jimmy fallon interview in 2018, the interview was done just a month before i watched it. upon my first watch, namjoon and jimin were the first two to catch my attention. i thought jimin was radiant. he had the most brilliant smile during the interview. it was really sweet. i continued to watch videos of them and jimin easily became my bias. jimin quickly became my bias from his personality alone, and serendipity quickly became my favorite song. jimin was able to attract me in two separate ways without me realizing that the voice i loved came from the person i liked most. speaking about the group as a whole, the connection between who i was seeing and who i was looking at took a bit to learn. i wasn’t really looking at song lyrics to be honest, i was just listening to the songs as they were. but after listening to serendipity about 188428 times over in the span of a couple days, i finally decided to look up a lyric video because i was convinced i could teach myself how to sing along to a korean song after only being acquainted with korean music in general for barely even a week. it was my favorite song. i was convinced. the point of the entire backstory is, i distinctly remember looking up the lyric video to serendipity so i could attempt to learn the lyrics, and when i saw that it was jimin’s i literally said out loud, “of course it’s yours.” and i continued to fail at trying to learn this korean song even though i was convinced i could. anyways, serendipity literally makes me feel like glitter and magic. even now. i WISH i could listen to it the same way i did that day. it was crazy.

k !

So... Hi everyone! I'm 42 and I'm a Critical Care Paramedic. I've worked EMS for 23 years ( yes pretty much half my life) and I started working in the ER about 2 almost 3 years ago. I happened to come across BTS mid to late 2018 on YouTube on one of those having to be awake for 24 hours while working ems. It was RM's UNICEF speech. His words made me think wow a lot of ppl should hear this and then later finding out his age really blew me away because most ppl at all ages struggle with loving themselves and life in general. Life can be hard. So after watching that I decided to search BTS on Youtube. The 1st song/mv that I actually clicked on was Epiphany by Jin. I listened to that and just thought wow and that was before I even thought to see if there was subtitles. I turned those on and watched it again and thought this was what I needed to hear at that moment because like most everyone I've struggled with loving myself and putting me 1st. I always and well still do put others 1st. I just randomly clicked on another song and it was just a lyric version of You never walk alone and that actually made me tear up a bit. Due to my career I developed PTSD and for the longest I was in denial until there was this 1 911 call and it broke me so to speak. I finally started to acknowledge I had ptsd and helped others realize they were close to the same or there. So I started helping them with their demons and mine. After listening to that song on repeat several times I realized I wasn't alone and all this was what my soul needed. I was hooked on BTS just after those 2 songs and for the month following I had downloaded, listened to and watched pretty much every song, performances and mv's I could find lol... I was officially ARMY after that. I noticed I was smiling more and happy. Constantly bopping my head to their music. At both jobs I began to keep at least a earbud in at all times with their songs playing as low as I could hear it and multi-task doing my job especially if I had a bad call. It helped so much with the nightmares and just my constant being hard and down on myself. Don't get me wrong I still have moments but it's moments and not 24/7 like it was. Then 2020 happened..... So much sadness, loneliness and helplessness came a long with it because of my career... So Wings and HYYH became the beginning of strength that I was going to need this year. So again the earbud in the ear at all times with their music playing was again what my soul needed. It reminded me that I wasn't alone, that I was enough and we could get through this. Honestly I've not made many friends through ARMY and weverse because I'm unfortunately one of those very quiet ppl. I'm a introvert . I don't post often on weverse or react on other's posts but I read most of them. Even though I don't, I know I always have ARMY and BTS. I always have both with me at all times. I purple you all! 💜 Sorry this was long lol

Nicole Frost

I'm an army since 2015, you can say my life has been filled with bts ever since i entered my 20s, and soon I'm turning 26 this year. I joined the fandom when they released hyyh pt.1, the time they were still tumbling in the industry. I thought they were insanely talented when I first found out about them- they are the first and only kpop group that intrigued me. You can't imagine how small the fandom was at that time. We tried everything to help bts getting more exposure...and we made it 😭 Bts also helped me through the lonely and stressful years in the uni. I still remember how i cried listening to the new song, LOST on the way back to my uni from my hometown, that was the second day after they release the Wings album. I got so much comfort from Wings, their lyrics truly helped me got through the hard times. And when I was lonely or sad, i watched run bts 😂 That's just a very small part of my story with bts. I could write a long essay about it haha.

Rachel Hsu

I found BTS in 2016 and I've met so many of my friends because of them and their music. I don't quite know how to explain what they mean to me but I'd say that they help me when I'm feeling down. Their accomplishments make me proud and no matter what they're always creating for us. They give me something to look forward to and always remind me that I am okay the way I am and that I am important.

Indigo

i’m not well spoken enough to even begin to talk about how much they’ve helped me but everyone’s stories is making me feel like i’m not alone! someone once said bts finds you when you need them the most and i couldn’t agree more

asia

Eu sou brasileira. Conheci o Bangtan em 2016 por um grupo de WhatsApp, um colega enviou a música BS&T, ouvi e achei interessante. Fui pesquisar e fiquei maravilhada porque não conhecia o kpop mas não dei muita atenção. Depois de um tempo eu voltei e quis conhecer mais sobre os meninos e me apaixonei, fiquei viciada e sempre procurei saber mais. Mais tarde depois da minha melhor amiga ir morar longe me vi sozinha, éramos muito próximas, de verdade. Estava no ensino médio e quando chega o final do curso somos "obrigados" a ter logo uma profissão e nesse tempo que tudo começou a ruir. Ficava destruída porque não sabia o que fazer, não conseguia um trabalho, me sentia inútil, a minha ansiedade me matava, não conseguia nem sair de casa, me isolei de todos e ainda tinha o lance do minha autoestima, que por sinal é horrível até hoje e tento melhorar cada dia. Eu sentia um vazio enorme, dor, sofria demais. Nem meu namorado e família conseguiram me ajudar, estava afundando e aquilo me assustava demais pois já pensava em me ferir e não queria existir. E para piorar eu lutava contra a vontade de me machucar e também me manter firme, pois não queria decepcionar ninguém. Guardei toda a minha dor, aquilo só me matava aos poucos Mas com o Bangtan consegui aguentar, eles me deram forças que nada mais conseguia, foquei muito neles porque em 2017 eles lançaram o álbum Love Yourself, isso foi um sinal de que precisava lutar para que não deixasse me levar. O Bangtan me ensinou que precisava me amar e aceitar o que eu estava sentindo para poder sobreviver. Estou me aceitando do jeito que sou e tentando ser melhor a cada dia Cheguei a me machucar mas não me envergonho, é uma cicatriz de sobrevivência, me mostra o quão fui forte para estar aqui hoje. BTS salvou e é um dos motivos que me fez querer viver. Eles fazem o meu dia, me deixam feliz só com um sorriso, me ensinou cada coisa linda e hoje sou melhor por causa dos meninos. Todo meu amor pertencem a eles e eu desejo tudo que há de melhor nesse mundão, espero que mesmo nas dificuldades eles encontrem a felicidade assim como trazem à mim. Só tenho que agradecer Me desculpe se não entendeu meu texto, não sou boa escrevendo Eu amo o seu canal, espero que não pare pois você alegra o meu dia Love ya 💜💜

Thainara

Here's my story. Sorry that it's so long. ☺️ My 11yr old daughter in 2018, wanted to see BTS at the United Center and we said no due to tickets prices. The day of the event she started crying and so we caved and bought the tickets because her B-Day was coming up. I went with her. The venue was lit up with young ladies. They would sing to every song and every video that came on the screen prior to the event. BTS came on stage and I have been Army ever since! I found myself rocking to almost every song. After that I started listening to their music. My oldest daughter got into them as well and the rest is history. Moving forward to 2019 we heard they were coming to Soldiers Field. The girls wanted to go. All of us went including my husband. We went to the BTS pop-up store and the girls waited in line for two and a half hours. We were going home Sunday to celebrate mother's Day. As we're going home my husband said do you guys want to go to the Sunday show and we were like you're kidding. Ticket prices had decreased dramatically. I'm like, he really liked the show to go again. So off we went. People of all races, genders, ages were there and we were all rockin to BTS! I get chills right now just talking about it. I have so many songs in my BTS playlist now. I listen to other K-pop groups as well. I listen to BTS more than my kids. Whenever there's a concert streaming or some special event I am on it! I love the guys. They are so funny and have good personalities and it seems like they're genuine and how they present themselves to us. If they want to laugh and be silly they will, if they don't they won't, and if they want get mad at each other they do that as well, there's no shame. and most importantly when I'm not feeling my best I put on BTS music and I am all better instantly. My worries and concerns don't feel as important anymore. I am now a part of two Facebook groups that are BTS for adults. My husband and Mom don't quite understand my interest and like for the guys but that's okay I'm all good! 💜💜

DinaArmyMom

I'm 50 years old and was introduced to BTS by my 16 year old daughter in 2017 during the DNA comeback. She continued showing me content, we watched American Hustle Life, Run episodes, and of course all of their previous MV's. Spring 2018 when they released Fake Love and the entire album, that was the moment I knew I could never turn back. I was going through a divorce and The Truth Untold hit me like a ton a bricks. We decided to try and get tickets to their LA concert, flew down and I cried, laughed, and had an amazing time with my daughter. It has been another way for her and I to connect which I love. We've been to more concerts and were so excited for this years. I love these 7 incredible young men just as much for who they are as their music. They are so humble, sincere, hardworking and spread a message the entire world needs to hear. They brighten my darkest days and give me hope for the future.

Penguin Love

BTS found me in February this year. That's when I watched their epic 'ON' performance on the Tonight Show. Jimmy always promotes music 🎶 artists, so to dedicate an entire show to just one group made me sit up & take notice 😳 I then watched the guys a few days later in Carpool Karaoke & fell right down the BTS rabbit hole so quickly I didn't know what hit me! 🥴😜😳😄😁 At that time, I had been struggling to recover from a work injury & was not able to return to my job. I felt lost & broken, completely disconnected from everyone, and was questioning how I could start moving forward again with my health & career goals hanging in the balance. Then I discovered I had to move right when the virus hit here in Canada back in March. Things seemed to be going from bad to worse 🥺 The Corona virus hit the labor market hard, & jobs where drying up everywhere. If it weren't for BTS, I don't know how I would have coped back then because I was depressed, unable to work, dealing with chronic daily pain, and trying to find mental health support at the start of a pandemic was near impossible! I have latched onto any BTS content that makes me smile & laugh as if my life depended on it! I LITERALLY cannot go a day without my BTS fix. I have such a love for these guys; their music 🎵, dynamic performances, fabulous personalities, crackhead humor, and of course, their love of ARMY. They are truly a phenomenon like no other the world has ever seen. I feel so blessed to have them in my life. Regarding my recent personal challenges, I can say that things are improving. I have been able to return to work, but part-time for now. I found a new place to live and got moved safely. I've also started making friends with some ARMY around the world 🌎, which truly amazes me! 💜 My recovery continues to improve too, so these positives keep me going. If you had told me at the beginning of this year that I would fall in love with a boy band from South Korea, & connect with fans of the group from countries all around the world 🌎 I would've said you were off your rocker! My, how times have changed! 😁 DT, I want to take a moment to personally thank you for providing a space for people to share their stories here in your Patreon community. It's less daunting to speak here because the comments are only being viewed by your Patrons, who are a super supportive bunch from what I've seen so far 😊 You are my favourite reactor! I especially love interacting with & sometimes challenging you in your livestreams, and also here on Patreon (yes, I'm one of the ones who occasionally gives you 'push back') 😉😁 I can't believe that I now follow you here on Patreon too... I don't follow ANYONE on Patreon, except you, so that's saying something! Actually, before BTS, I didn't do a lot with social media outside of keeping up with friends on fb & watching some videos on YT. I have no doubt in my mind that you were meant to start your reaction channel & become hooked on BTS. You have the kind of warmth, humor, & sincerity that makes people want to hang out with you while you enjoy reacting to the boys. I feel so blessed to be a part of ARMY & also a part of your YouTube & Patreon communities. Whenever you react to anything Jimin, I know I'm gonna bust a gut, which is so healing for the soul 😄😆😅🤣😂😉😁 Having such a safe space to share our love of BTS, as well as our journies down the BTS rabbit hole, helps create a more personal connection with everyone. Being part of your community here feels like family 👪 & we all need that, especially in 2020. Thanks for being you! Borahae 💜

Amethyst Arthur

9 years ago, my son passed away on my daughter's birthday. We'd known it was coming for a while, he had a rare genetic disorder called Menkes Syndrome. He was in respite when he passed away, so we couldn't be with him. The knock on my door came the morning of my daughter's 7th birthday, as I wrapped her gifts, and I had to keep it a secret and get through the day and the party like everything was okay, because I wanted her to have one last, normal birthday before our lives came crashing down around us. I never really recovered from that, and neither did she. A few years later she was watching YouTube, and found a Nightcore version of Blood, Sweat & Tears, and Googled the original group. Our first MV was the Japanese version of Blood, Sweat & Tears, and we were quickly in love. But it wasn't until Epiphany by Jin that I felt my entire world shift. I'd carried this pain in my heart for so long, and when I heard the lyrics to that song I broke down and sobbed for the first time since my son passed away. Two weeks later "I'm the one I should love" was permanently tattooed on my forearm, and I knew my life would never be the same again. I was a fan before, but from that point I owed them my happiness, my daughter's happiness. We've grown so close thanks to BTS, and we'll forever be thankful to them for that. Before, I was a successful, bestselling author, but I gave it away because I didn't believe in myself. I was wallowing in my depression. Thanks to BTS I now have the courage to write again, and I'm penning a story about my son - something I've wanted to do ever since he was diagnosed. Sorry for rambling, this is really the first time I've gone in depth about it, so yeah...

Crystal

Got into BTS after a nasty break up with someone I trusted the most and during my parents’ violent divorce. It was all a pure coincidence . I clicked on a YouTube video out of curiosity, and my life changed forever. I feel like crying just thinking what BTS has helped me become. I was never a people’s person and I hated going out, I had bad acne and was always insecure about my appearance. But after years of getting to know them and getting to see such human stuggles that even they go through like anybody else, as well as reading their lyrics and fan letters through shows and docu series, it slowly but surely made me realise I can be something bigger, i can be like that too. So I left my country to study abroad on my own, doing pretty much everything by myself and now, I am living a healthy live, studying Hospitality and greeting customers with the biggest smile on my face, everyday. Me from 2 years ago, who was scared to make eye contact with anyone, has now done countless job interviews without getting nervous and has become an independent woman who is pursuing customer service. Crazy, isn’t it? It’s all thanks to them, these boys. I owe them my whole life. They helped me find myself and carried me through the darkest time of my life without self-harming.

Linh Nguyen

Hang in there🙂. My 16 yr old daughter has Autism. It's hard but some days she makes me laugh harder or smile more than I ever have. Last night she just casually said while we ate dinner..."You're a good mom." That on a day where I felt I was doing everything wrong. Remember to take care of you too❤️.

Terri Cooper

Hello, I am an army mom 36 years old with Met bts in November 2019, my 2 year old son was hospitalized in an emergency It gave him a disease, guillian barre syndrome, that causes his nervous system to fail, and stopped moving, it starts with the feet and goes up until it reaches the head, it makes him stop breathing By himself and they have to intubate, my son did not reach such a point but if he remained immobile, I was in the hospital for 20 days, while I was in that place day or night, I took books, watched videos, I watched a drama ( HWARANG) and I really liked it and looked for information from the actors and I found that one was taehyung a member of a KPOP group BTS and Minho a member of SHINee, so I looked for BTS and He captivated me with his energy when dancing, all those days I spent watching videos of them knowing their history, look at the lyrics of their songs, they gave me strength and joy in that moment of pain in My life, my son is now well back to normal, I feel that if I had not met bts I would not have remained so optimistic, I love bts as if they were my children, I want them to have everything What they want, so much so that in my daily prayers they are always present 💜

Dsenisse Valenzuela

I wasn’t part of the army right in 2013. I found bts during 2014-2015. There is a saying that you don’t find bts, bts finds you when you need them most and I believe that so much. I lost my father when I was 16 years old. He was my best friend and we bonded a lot over music. Music was our thing. When he passed away, I went completely silent and couldn’t listen to music because it was too painful for me. In 2014-2015, I found bts during their most beautiful moment in life albums. Those two albums connect so strongly with me. After one song, I kept listening to more and more. I didn’t care if I didn’t know the language. It was like I knew what they were saying already. They filled my heart up and brought back the bright side of me. Even today when I am down and sad, just hearing their song or watching a video of them makes me happy again. They are definitely my family and they saved me from myself. I was supposed to see them back in may of 2020 for the first time, but I hope that when things get better, we can all see them performing and enjoying themselves on stage again. 💜💜💜

Susan Schmoyer

I have a bad habit of having a hard time and being strong for everyone, but when everything is resolved, I feel the pressure, it's like a late side effect. I had a cancer and for two years I went through treatments, I was the strength of my family and I tried not to make them sad or hopeless, after all, if I'm going through everything and stay fine, they should follow my example and be well too! Anyway, two years later I had my cure, but as I said, everyone was fine and celebrated my good health, or how they like to say "my victory" and after everything was fine, right at that moment was when I I developed depression and had one of the worst moments of my life, I just couldn't live, I did everything automatically, I ate because I had to eat, I talked to my family pretending to be okay, just to not let anyone worry, I just pretended and lied, everything I went through and I was not beaten during the whole treatment, it came at once and I almost couldn't bear it. That's when I discovered a KPOP (it was a week after the boys' presentation at the AMA) and decided to research, found the DNA mv on youtube and decided to look for other songs ... And that was my starting point again, I entered this world and I become ARMY and I say with pride and conviction: BTS saved my life. I'm so thankful for BTS and for ARMYs, they helped me even without knowing me 💜 (Sorry if I wrote something wrong, English is not my native language, I'm from Brazil and thank you so much for this space to talk about our ARMY story 💜)

Danielle Dias

Let’s see, I started listening to BTS in 2016, right around the time I started watching a lot of kdramas and learning Korean. Weirdest BTS story is waking up from anesthesia after back surgery, singing the chorus to “Spine Breaker” and giggling. According to the anesthesiologist, who spoke Korean, I was singing the same song while I was going under, too.

MyySharona

Oh where do I start? I am 33 years old, a wife and a mother. A year ago my son was diagnosed with Autism, he will be 4 years old in November. It has been a hell of a ride. Discovering the symptoms, going through a lot of evaluations, the diagnosis, searching for treatment resources and so on and so on. I was really trying to be strong on the outside but emotionally I am drained. I am scared of the future, I just want my son to be well developed, but the reality tells different. I have known BTS since 2018, since Idol era, i thought they were great, but that was it. Did not follow them or anything. Until one day, my son accidentaly turn youtube on, searching for his favorite Peppa Pig series, and then there was this new BTS Kinetic Manifesto Film, it took his attention probably because of the contrast of white and blue color visual on the cover so he clicked and watched the whole thing and he was DANCING TO IT. I have never seen him attracted to anything except for peppa pig, so watching him dancing to BTS ON was a BIG DEAL! Also, he can sing along! I mean, come on! What kind of magic that BTS did to make a child with autism dance and sing along with them? His favorites are ON, Fire and the current world wide hit Dynamite. Sing all of them too! I am an Army because of my son and I can totally understand why. They have changed my perspective in life, they tought me how to love myself which I never thought I needed it. I am not scared anymore. Really, our home is full of laughter and joy and happiness now despite of all the challenges that we have. Thanks to covid19, that gives me time to learn about BTS. Safe to say that husband and son are also baby Army like me. We woke up to Dynamite every morning now. It's our alarm ringtone. 💜🥰💜

witha

Thank you 😭💜 It was amazing.. absolutely the best day of my life..

❥♱ʍɨӄᥲ⳽ᥲ♱‧➻

Wow...Thank you for sharing this, I have watched the video of ARMY sing to them so many times and wondered what it would have been like to be there. 💜🤟🥰

Christina R

I tell you that Suga is my inspiration for not giving up on my music. But all of BTS has given me great strength and happiness. I am going to tell you why. In 2014 I was diagnosed with Leukaemia. I done well with even though he died of fiance in 2016. Then in 2019, I had to start chemotherapy. And BTS had gotten through it all. Yes, I do a lot for them not as an Army but as a true friend. Yes, I meet them and PD Bang ( Mr. Bang). They are just as they are or as everyone sees them in the multiple shows they have. But I am in remission and have been since February 2020. And now you know something only my family knew. I keep it from people because I do not like people feeling sorry for me because I was going through chemotherapy and fighting leukemia. But that is my story of how BTS helped me in my life. And yes I till get my inspiration from Suga not to give up on my music.

Anna Tenney

I have been ARMY since MAY 2019. I have a few good experiences, but my favorite by far is from last month. My 16 year old daughter, became a fan after the release of ON and BLACK SWAN. She started to understand why I was so obsessed over BTS. At the beginning of August my daughter started having complications related to her health problems and was admitted in the hospital. She would watch BTS DEAR CLASS OF 2020 performance over and over so she wouldn't be so scared. She was released on the 16th, but had to be readmitted on the 20th. Because DYNAMITE was releasing at midnight, we decided to just leave the headphones off and play it out loud in her room, so we could celebrate. She was in the hospital for 9 days that time and we had her doctors and nurses humming dancing and singing many BTS songs. Her nurses loved how happy it made my daughter and themselves feel so they started telling other patients about DYNAMITE in particular to help them feel better mentally at least. Then when BTS started dropping the Sing DYNAMITE with me videos (especially JIMIN'S), everytime my daughter would get scared and start to cry I would put those videos on(usually starting with Jimin) and without fail, mid cry she would giggle, smile, and snatch my phone to watch. That will forever be a precious memory. BTS DYNAMITE did exactly what they wanted it to do, bring happiness and comfort in distressing times.

Christina R

I’ve loved bts since the run MV was first released, they’ve gotten me through a lot. I grew up with them, I guess? They found me with run and I need u right when I was an angry little lesbian high schooler, bitter and terrified of the future, and they encapsulated the,, lost? The longing and nostalgia and love of youth that a lot of lgbt kids want, or knew. When things aren’t good at all but there’s Moments of light. Anyway. Mid 2019 I was in a place worse than I’d ever been in, and I ended up in the hospital. I was all alone by myself, the closest family hundreds of miles away unwilling to visit, with my heart literally giving out from what I did to land me in the ER, and I just. Remember having only my phone and my keys and that was just. It. And I sat there from 2am to almost 7am hooked up to all manner of unpleasant things, hardly able to speak, function, with my phone right on my collarbone w bts songs playing as low as I could manage. I could pretend they were my family, gathered up in the ER with me, in a way. They really just. Saved me that night. I was already medically stable but my mental state was so, so awful, and they brought me back to a point where I could feel Alive enough to not cry my way through the night. I think I played best of me (which isn’t a sad song, really) everythinggoes, and spring day the most. And run. Over and over again. At least one of the nurses probably left an army that night lol. To this day I think of that night and I just. They got me through it, they’ve found me exactly where I was through the years, and they continue to do so. Where now, on the anniversary of that terrible night (a few weeks ago), I played best of me at the top volume on my speakers and cried happy tears through it, because I’m here. I got to play dynamite in place of run, and feel the same nostalgia for my youth, without the bitter aftertaste. I’m here, and the world might be burning, but bts burns brighter, and they help me burn as brightly, as gently, and healthily, as I can, every single day. So, yeah. I love them a lot.

Sam Morton

I am an ARMY since 2016. Save me was the first video I've watched. It got me hooked and I am following them ever since. My niece is now 7 years old. She got the chance to listen to BTS from an early age. Her favorite songs were Fake Love, Spring Day and Blood, Sweat and Tears. One day she had a sleep over at my place and wanted to sleep with my Mang pillow...she even had the nerve to take it home 😂. She is in love with everything Mang related. A year ago she started to have a bias. It was Hobi. I asked her why and she answered "He is wearing cool shoes". She didn't even know that Hobi created Mang...what a coincidence 😉. Now every time she is sleeping over or is just visiting me, she goes through my BTS DVD collection and just enjoys them without understanding a single word. She can now pick out Hobi every time she sees him. I recently asked her why he is her favorite...now she said "Because his smile is cute and he has the best poses". She can single out Jin as well. At home she is listening to BTS non stop and even video calls me just to show me that she discovered a new song. Last time we spoke 47 min...just BTS related. We even went to watch the Break the Silence movie together. I am proud to see her growing fond of them. She picked the right role models.

Vanessa Squintu

I’ve been an army for almost 5 years now and I seriously feel like they are an important part of my life. And that’s a lot, being in someone’s history. For me, I’m a really quiet person, not many friends, I don’t express emotions a lot people keep saying that to me. Somehow since I been in this journey with bts i learned A LOT from each one of them, I don’t feel I’m alone, even if I don’t interact with other armys, just by reading armys tweets and stuff I feel related. Since the beginning I’ve cried a lot from happiness, sadness, frustration, I laughed a lot, I started to feel more alive, I keep wishing and pray for bts safety, happiness, I started to care for these 7 guys like my own family. Even if I won’t be able to see them ever (bc of my country) I feel ok bc I know they work so hard for a concert and I want them to rest a little. I admire them, I WANT to be like them, they’re my role models and it’s funny bc in the past I’ve never imagine being so into a boy band, I was into rock, blues, classical music,, so big change lmao. I don’t know what else to write, I never comment in something lol, but it’s nice to let my view of them in some part on the internet to get lost. Stills feels weird but anyways, I just love bts more than my low vocabulary is, I’m struggling with English now hahaha. They just make me want to live.

Lucero Ludeña

I found out about BTS after watching a korean drama and V was acting in that drama and you know he so handsome so i had to search about him😂. Because of him I became an army and i fell in love with all the members but not JK. I was little bit jealous of him, i was like V is the most handsome member but why JK is always the one who gets the attention and he is the center, the main vocalist who gets most of the lines in every song? But then after watching run bts and bon voyage I learned more about there personality’s and I found out that JK was not the person who I thought he is. He is such an amazing and humble person and he really deserves the love that he gets. So after month of staning bts JK stole my heart and he is my bias since 2016🐰💗💗.

Rand

I was lucky enough to be in the wembly concert last year, where we sang young forever for the boys..and also i was lucky enough to get sound check tickets and be right in front of the stage.. Jungkook came to cry right in front of my face..Q-Q and then Hobi came and hugged him from behind.. VMin looked like royalties that are way too beautiful to look at.. and Tae kept coming to our side of the stage, he also gave his glasses to this girl who was right next to me ..Q-Q and he's so damn pretty.. Yoongi splashed some holy water on our faces and looked like a kitten ;3; Namjoon made us all cry like babies with his words Hobi came to our side a lot as well, his smile is the prettiest thing ever in real life 💕 Seokjin kept doing harry potter jokes and he looked like a prince, pictures doesn't do him justice at allll They're all like 5839395929 times more beautiful in real life.. Also we made Jimin and Hobi laugh with our sign..QuQ I really miss this concert..it was the best day of my life and i really hope i would be lucky enough to be in another concert one day.. It was my first BTS concert and my first kpop concert in general.. even though I love BTS from 2014 and kpop since 2009.. I also hope all of you would get the chance to be in a concert 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

❥♱ʍɨӄᥲ⳽ᥲ♱‧➻

I am from North East India and just wanted to share that BTS found me when i needed them most. Im getting married and lost my husband at young age,after my husband was gone,depression hit me and i don't like to be around my friends and fam,just staying everyday inside my room. One day while i watch some vids from utube,i found BTS song i.e Answer:Love Myself,the lyrics hit me so hard and after that im starting to watch some of their funny vids. From that time,im starting to laugh and smile along with them till today. I really love these 7 humble boys with all my heart 💜

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