Saturday update

So, this video was recorded a couple weeks ago when I thought I had full coverage going on at least for my daytime shiftS 9 AM to 9 PM all week. The girl helping me in this video turned out to be an alcoholic who kept saying she would get her drivers license renewed after a DUI… I had a flaky three months with her before we decided to cancel her probation timeframe on the job* everybody gets a 60 days probation during which either party can decide it is not a good fit* when she arrived at work with alcohol in her Coffee flask/water bottle. She acted all surprised when we let her go😒 alcohol sucks and I am not really a drinker myself although I do like the occasional flirty little drink now and then. I don't understand people who binge on alcohol and have a good time doing it… and I have no tolerance for people who drink on the job.

What upsets me about most caregivers is that the ones who go into it with no medical training thinking that it will basically be babysitting and feeding someone, don't take it seriously has a professional job with the same requirements and expectations as a"" Normal job. Because of the constant flakiness and unreliability of caregivers, we are going to have to create a contract which new hires sign agreeing to be professional and consistent… we pay above minimum wage by quite a bit, but in the contract we will stipulate that if someone is unprofessional etc. They will go back to minimum wage for the foreseeable future. The other girl who took this girl's hours texted on Friday before her shift on Saturday saying she couldn't come in because her boyfriend wants to take her to some stupid festival. And she said she's going to be taking time off at the end of the month, like a whole week, and it's not like I have a back up. She's young, she's 19,* gotta love those jobless 19-year-old boyfriends😷* she needs to get her priorities in order… give me a break. I'm fucking tired of this. My parents have to fill in when people cancel and honestly these people treat their job like it's an optional activity.

However, I firmly believe that rejection is protection. If the vibe is it right, it will manifest, and just like in any relationship I would rather know right away it isn't going to work rather than invest my heart and soul into someone who doesn't really care.

The good news is, because of these other girls not working out, one of my previous caregivers who got a job at a memory care place wants to come back and work for me. She is so sweet and Beautiful and loves helping me with content! Fingers crossed and send out all the good vibes you can that she follows through and I get the adequate care I need as well as the opportunity to make more care videos as well as s*xy shoots.

I've not been going to many appointments at all and it's because of my caregiver situation. Sometimes it's devastating realizing that I depend so much on unqualified people for my complex needs and simply the opportunity to go out and about and not feel like I'm useless sitting at home. I dream of an amazing well qualified caregiver team who not only helps me with my health and wellness but also cares about my vision to be one of the first severely disabled female creators openly sharing my body and s**ual expression. I'm looking forward to seeing how that will evolve as I start dating in the future or cultivating a relationship with an anchor partner who is supportive of my dreams and may want to create spicy content with me😊

I'm manifesting people who know what the fuck they're doing, and that's that.