Stressed out AF!

Calling all the guides and angels and good thoughts. I seriously need to find more caregivers. Ones that are young, want to do fun things, and approve of the fact that I'm starting to date people. Today one of my caregivers said she couldn't take me to my date next Sunday because she's afraid he's a psychopath and her husband won't let her.! I highly doubt that a sweet over thinking ultra athlete from Ohio is going to murder me first thing, but I guess you never know. These could be some of my final words… on the bright side I would probably die happy based on the way I'm feeling so far. So let me clarify with the universe: I don't want fear-based caregivers. With controlling husbands. All of these toxic relationships, it's enough to make me never want to date, but I can still date without having to have a relationship that is defined. I want to be around young, active people who do not subscribe to the common narrative of finding the one or being controlled by the one. I had to reschedule my date from this Sunday to next Sunday because I never have full-time weekend care. I need to find two full-time caregivers who can help me on the weekends. That's not too much to ask an all living all abundant universe.

There are exciting things coming up. I have to call a PCP tomorrow to switch doctors, and I'm excited to ask about getting more physical therapy. My current doctor doesn't seem to care that I have movement needs and they need to exercise just as much as before if not more so. I'm not a lost cause.

I'm actually secretly really excited about my date, except I would never admit that. Will be meeting in the afternoon because I keep my nights to myself. So even if it's a one afternoon stand, I think it'll be OK, because it means I'm trying new things and not getting stuck in my comfort zone. Plus the universe knows how much I really really really really need cuddles.

I hope you guys will be helping me manifest my new caregivers. It'll be amazing to see who is attracted to help take care of me and help me to reach my goals. Besides, I'm paying for some dope concerts and whoever is caregiving for me get in free! Tell your friends! Lol.

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