Rose petals part three

Sometimes, you don't feel safe around certain people. Emotionally safe.

There's a huge sigh of relief and comfort Felt when somebody offers a safe space around themselves and in conversation where you can be emotionally secure. This feeling is overwhelming when you are used to constantly having your guard up and not feeling safe enough to trust.

The law of attraction also rules in a way that will bring people who need your energy to you, and sometimes those people will be energy vampires. Selfish, they will use your energy instead of reciprocating it, and they can be disguised as best friends. Instead of talking to people like this, it's best to preserve your energy and protect the radiant aura that surrounds you by not initiating contact. I feel zero urge now to contact the people who said they loved me but treated me like less than dirt when I was at my lowest. They. Don't. Deserve. My. Time.

Closing energetics doors that are no longer a serving you opens up new pathways for connection in love and friendship. Your energy is freed and this naturally send out signals to the world you are ready for more genuine connection. We all have attachments. At some point we are faced with either hoarding all the attachments or letting them go completely. We don't have to live with them. Something which is repelling me about living in Denver is the bitter spirit of my ex friend who I've known since I was little. I don't feel safe around her, because of a situation where she basically told me my disability is my fault, and instead of ever apologizing to me she just texts my mom Long convoluted messages saying how unfair it is that I don't want to still be her friend. I feel zero urge to talk to her. She carries a dark and judgmental spirit. The past couple days I had been feeling severely depressed and down on myself. My mom let me know she had recently texted her with such a long rather mean spirited text, she wouldn't even repeat it to me. Maybe the voice in my head these past couple days has NOT then my voice. Maybe she is trying to infiltrate my consciousness with negative hurtful blaming vibes… and I don't need that. That does not serve me. Other people in my life right now are being very encouraging and affirming and maybe they are right, maybe there is a lot of beautiful things in store for me. Happening right now. I'm pretty humbled by just the connections I've made through this platform. This disabled life is not easy, but I am never as hard on others as I am on myself, and with quadriplegia you really have to just give yourself kindness. Blame and shame have no place here.

My lawyer sent me these roses because he knew I was feeling down. My caregiver got all excited because she thought one of my patrons from a foreign land had sent them to me. I got dreaming about that for a second, and thought why don't we do a little photo shoot with them. If I can't re-purpose roses to create something beautiful, that will be the day I should die. So unless roses go extinct or something, I guess your Elle Rose will  be sticking around.

I was reminded today that just being kind to my body is enough and that the natural law of attraction Will draw kind people to me as I continue to be kind to myself.

ILY,

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