Baby if you wanna leave, come to California be a freak like me too

Here's me singing bellyache and freak.
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Also a little update on my caregiver who usually helps me with my erotic Photoshoot which have definitely lessened and taken away subscribers in the process, which I apologize for but it's kind of out of my hands. Anyway, she had her baby and turns out he has a hole in his heart. He's at Children's Hospital on oxygen constantly and they will be doing a surgery soon to see what is blocking his lungs from allowing him to breathe properly. In the meantime, we hired to caregivers two ! Fuck the English language! For the weekends and I will be doing a podcast episode about that because although one is a very hard worker and she caught on really fast to my schedule, I'm afraid the other one truly makes me lose hope for the future generation and their ability or lack there of to retain information and care for people let alone do a job right. It's extremely frustrating and yes I am thankful for the help, but my parents end up helping her with everything so there's no way she's going to be able to help advance my independence and learn to drive my accessible van etc. So that I can be more Mobile on the weekend and not just stay stuck at home. My goal is to get out of the house every day, even if it's just to go to the park and drive around. I'm kind of nervous to find out if when I move to Seattle caregivers are like this, or if I will find really reliable and helpful people who just have common sense. I'm really looking forward to hiring queer and I'll be GTO caregivers once I am back in Washington LBTGQ oh my God… maybe by then voice access will actually work properly!! I accidentally said I love you to someone because I meant to say 11 and it typed out I love you and sent it before I could take it back. I wasn't mad because I kind of sort of really really really like them anyway…

ANYWAY

If you all could send good thoughts and prayers to my caregiver and her baby Santi that would be so appreciated. I'm not 100% sure that thoughts and prayers accomplish a whole lot, but I think just sending them makes everybody feel better. And that's all you can do sometimes, it's just about feeling better in the midst of absolute hell. I don't know. My theology is shady so don't quote me on that…

For me, singing makes me feel "" normal and happy so that's what I do.

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