My caregiver abandoned me
Added 2022-11-16 02:54:51 +0000 UTCHere one day, gone the next.
I'm not just a job, I'm a person with feelings.
Abandonment issues and fear of losing people runs strong in my veins after severe trauma, losing most of my abilities as well as a whole life and lifestyle and career and social life all at once.
I just want people to stay.
Am I that much of a burden?
Am I that difficult to take care of?
My other three reliable caregivers reassure me that it's not my fault, but I can't help but grief because I formed a relationship with this person, I allowed them into my inner world, that inner sanctum of vulnerability that comes with being disabled and yet Sharing my life and directing my care trusting my life with a person I actually have to call just a Stranger at first. And, like a bad break up, I get to call them stranger again. Why is there such a common theme of the sudden abandonment of work? When your job includes and actually surrounds a disabled person being able to function and the apart and to be a part of society to some degree, and you just walk away from that without any warning, that disabled person is possibly going to struggle greatly searching for someone to replace the care you were giving.
Send good vibes my way…
