Boulder day trip

I had planned on having a day full of doing things in Boulder, but when I got there I had so much social anxiety I could barely Drive my chair out of the van. Hey it's moments like these that we don't really talk about in the disabled community. Those moments when you want to the able to move about in society as an invisible able-bodied creature that doesn't draw attention with a huge wheelchair and a crooked neck and trouble breathing while I'm talking to people. I did manage to make it to a vegan place to eat which was inaccessible for me so  I waited outside while my caregiver ordered.

Boulder is definitely swarming with attractive young people but I miss the gloomy eccentric characters of Seattle and being in a city where people are living and working and going to school kind of made my heart ache worse.

I still find beauty in the mountains, but it's nothing like how my heart skips when I'm coming close to the ocean. Because I was feeling antisocial we ended up just enjoying our food and driving from Boulder to Golden which is a really quaint western like town what's reminded me a lot of my hometown in Nevada city California. I want to be able to buy a sprinter van so that I can travel and visit the places I love again because I cannot fly in a normal plane… I suppose if I was in first class and could recline all the way because my blood pressure can drop suddenly, but because I still breathe with the help of hey ventilator or my pacer it's not really the best idea for me to fly. I used to love airports and flying, just being around everyone going somewhere gave me a high… So it really sucks that my injury which caused my disability prevents me from something so simple which made me feel so good. For instance I would love to hop on a plane and visit my hometown visit former lovers and eat Nevada city vegan food which honestly is like 1000 times better sorry Boulder .