a lil close up in gold
Added 2021-03-05 19:55:01 +0000 UTCposting cute lil updates for each tier with their own exclusive image from this most recent gold intimate set shot by Jay Park!
march has been super busy so far!!! this week was crraazzyyy with a bunch of classes, training, as well as continuing to audition for tv shows and films. i got suuuper close with a role. it was down to me and another girl. unfortunately they went with the other girl, but that is the closest i've gotten to a part in a while!!! still grinding and still working hard. now i'm back in classes and training so i can level up. to be honest, i need these classes. i've been feeling stuck in my craft and i'm learning to let go and not be afraid to make silly choices or look dumb. i've had a bad habit of being too perfect and glossy. i need to let it go more and allow my creative instincts to take over instead of being too over rehearsed.. which is where my work has been lately. it's been an amazing epiphany realizing these things to get to the next level of my work. my work is still good enough, but now i need to try new and different things that excite me. letting go will take me to the next level of spontaneity and strong creative choices made in the moment, instead of pre-planning everything. ahhh i've been going to therapy to work on my anxiety about my perfectionism syndrome. ever since i've been working with a therapist for the last 6 months, and my anxiety has just started to feel significantly less overwhelming this week in particular. progress and growth is such a patient process. i've honestly felt more anxiety than i ever have before lately.. it's been difficult and emotional but i can feel myself healing and learning from my mistakes. it's getting better and better every day. i just gotta be patient with myself :)
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thank you for your incredible messages of encouragement ricky. i always appreciate your lengthy replies like this one. you are truly the kindest soul out there. so blessed to have your support
Jeannie Elise Mai
2021-03-13 06:49:18 +0000 UTCi love how you said "a beautiful mess is so much more appealing than perfection" i completely agree and want to move more towards that direction :)
Jeannie Elise Mai
2021-03-13 06:48:30 +0000 UTCMy favorite thing about this post is that it seems like an excuse to talk about things and isn't really a content post. I'm all for these little peeks. Congrats on getting so far. You'll get the next one :) Yes, open up! I feel like I've been saying that, but maybe I've just been thinking it. A beautiful mess is so much more appealing that perfection in almost all aspects of life. Feel free to spontaneously come get Sprocket back, too, dang it.
Playing on Normal
2021-03-05 23:52:15 +0000 UTCoh Jeannie, fantastic looking as ever. Glad to hear that you have been so busy, mega unlucky to lose out on the role at the very last hurdle. But it must be encouraging in the sense that you got so far in the process. i think being prepared for an acting role isn't a bad thing, just getting the balance of being prepared vs coming off spontaneous is the difficult thing to do. Maybe just thinking about how the character you want to potray is supposed to come off. If they are a "messy" character then maybe less preparation would be better for that kind of role. It might be a case of slightly overthink rather than over prepare. Never forget that we are here to support you. If you want feedback/constructive criticism before sending something off, we are here for you. We want you to achieve the greatness that you deserve - if we can assist you in any tiny way it is our privilege to do so. i'm happy that the therapy is helping you with the anxiety. don't beat yourself up about past mistakes, look to the future greatness that is inevitably in your path. Much love to you Michelle and Chelsea (and goku and Nova too of course).
ricky zjawinski
2021-03-05 20:06:59 +0000 UTCI'm happy that you are busy working on acting and taking care of yourself. It's so easy to neglect yourself, especially when your busy. I did a small test in class today. Constitutional law. Got two questions wrong, but I disagree with one of the 'correct' answers. Really I should have gotten one wrong which would give an A. But we'll see. I'm actually playing TV bingo right now, believe it or not
Jógvan Jákupsson
2021-03-05 20:06:54 +0000 UTC
