*✧ ✰ ｡* teaser of one of the most calculated, creative photo sets i've ever done (+ a rant)

 ╰(✿´⌣`✿)╯♡  I will be posting the full 26 images from this set for SUUUPER SUPPORT & up. We got up at 4am to drive an hour Malibu at 5am to reach the secret beach before sunrise to get these specific colors from the beach. The key was to go before the sunlight came out to capture the muted colors of the ocean and sand that contrasts well with our bright pink wigs, outfits, and props. We are wearing pink tulle material fabric that is wrapped around our torsos and bought matching colored leggings. The tulle material was just wrapped and kept falling off but we managed to capture some gorgeous shots before the sun came out! We also brought props to the beach such as a bright green umbrella, a bright green orange lounge chair, and a bright pink telephone. This was one of the most skillfully planned photo shoots I've ever done. Most of my photo shoots are done spontaneous, but this one had to be properly timed with the right coordinating outfits and props to successfully manifest our vision to life. I am so incredibly proud of these images because it captures the artistic essence that is genuinely true to my creative goals. My heart and soul is more of a quirky, eccentric kind of artist.

To be completely honest, I woke up feeling extremely sad today. Especially with my birthday approaching so quickly. I'm just really disappointed. Even typing this makes me get a lil teary eyed and I have to control my emotions from getting out of control because I do have tendencies to react irrationally when I get overwhelmed. Looking at my notifications on Patreon have been bringing me down lately, seeing so many people leave and delete their pledge definitely makes me feel less valued as an artist. Don't get me wrong, I am SO grateful for any and all the blessings I've received through Patreon. I understand that not everyone can support for long periods of time. I've just been bogged down by a lot of financial stress. Living in LA is hella expensive. Our family's main income is property and we are trying to find renters, but lately there has been no buyers.. American government hasn't provided much financial help to me either. If it seems like I haven't been active on here, it's because I am actually trying to see if I can find part time essential work. I've also been sad reading the exit surveys from those who deleted their pledge saying that they were mainly here for nudes (which will never happen) or they didn't like my content or that I disappointed them as a Patreon creator. All my life, I've only wanted to be a serious artist.. I understand that "sex sells". I thought I really did have people supporting me artistically, but it feels shitty to know that people only want to see sexual content all the time. I am really sorry to anyone who supports me for not satisfying your sexual needs with my content. I will try my best to give you more sensual content, but sometimes I just really don't see myself as that kind of content creator and I want to spend time to evolve my craft to where I need to grow.. but I understand since this is a business transaction, I have to make content that will keep patrons interested in staying. Please understand I am trying my best to satisfy my patrons, but I don't want to lose sight of my real purpose as an artist.

I want to end this post on a happy note. I am SO ENTIRELY grateful for all of your help and support during this time. For those who stay, please know I am doing my best to invent new ways for you to be a part of my creative journey. I am thinking about doing a live zoom meeting with fellow reactor Chelsea in a live table reading of my horror comedy project I wrote for us to star in. Would anyone be interested in watching a live script reading of my brand new secret scripted project with fellow reactor Chelsea? I also want to host a movie night when my newest movie role in Universal Studios American Pie comes out this July I believe :)

Thank you for those who took the time to read this. I appreciate feeling seen and heard by my supporters. It would mean a lot to me if you helped grow my engagement by giving this post a like or comment. Let me know who is interested in watching a live script reading with Chelsea or American Pie movie night. If anyone has more ideas, please let me know. I want to make this a place that is fun and worth staying and supporting. ♡♡♡

Also huge thank you to Kristjan for sending me an early birthday gift to my Paypal. I literally cried.. Thank you for your kindness when I was feeling down lately ❤