cold a f, so here's a throwback from sunnier days

Yo it's cold a f, but i'm a lil baby californian who doesn't know what cold weather is so i think 50 degrees is SO cold lmaooo. 

Right now i'm working on an audition to be in a film produced by Sam Raimi who produced a lot of amazing horror films and another audition for a netflix feature where I get to play a vampire. Last post, I was in really depleted, but after experiencing an amazing trance music festival called Dreamstate, I feel even more motivated and inspired to create. I just needed some time to get out of LA and have a blast with people who genuinely are my friends. Made a lot of realizations about myself and what I need to change to be my best self. I noticed a lot of my destructive, egotistical habits during the music festival and I was confronted with so much self reflection. I even feel more powerful and aware than I ever before. I am starting to read books again and started writing in my journal again. It's amazing how much music and good people and help transform me when I'm in a dark place. I felt incredibly grateful to be at Dreamstate. I celebrated humanity's best EDM artists and felt the incredible love from the trance community. So much respect for music artists creating insanely psychedelic and trippy visuals that take me into another world and remind me how there is so much life to experience. I felt humbled. I felt small in comparison to the universe. There were so many people gathered for this "you had to be there" experience. I felt like we were honoring the majesty of the universe together. Humanity has come so far and I am in awe with all of its creation. Lots of artists creating experiences for people and it brings me so much hope. I felt in love with life again. I felt like i remembered who I was before all the serious acting pressure. Now i remember what it feels like to have fun making art. 

AH i missed myself. I am back,  but now, I only strive to be better than who I was. I am hungry for self improvement. I want to give back to the community. I want to donate time and money. I feel like doing a lot of selfless deeds. It all starts at the home though. I made a list of things I want to start doing and improving in my own home like start cooking home made dinners again, and taking time to organize and clean my own living space. I love you all and hope you have a great celebration of gratitude this week.