THANK YOU PATRONS DAY ♡♡♡
Added 2019-11-19 22:43:59 +0000 UTCYesterday was not my best day :/ I found out I didn't get the role in the two indie movie I had callbacks for. Therefore, I straight up had the worst auditions in a while. I was so off. After both auditions (one for the showtime pilot & one for a small role in Grey's anatomy) I couldn't keep tears from flooding my eyes and I couldn't stop crying from feeling like a failure. I was really disappointed in myself. I blanked out on all dialogue. I felt so much shame and embarrassment that I needed to leave LA. After my two auditions, I drove an hour and half away from LA to my parents' home. I spent time with my sister and parents. I miss home so much. I miss the times when acting wasn't so high pressure. I miss who I was before all the opportunities. I am so grateful to be moving up in the industry, but damn, feeling like I failed in such big circumstances can feel so depleting to my self worth. I am so blessed I have family near LA so I can escape to when LA feels too heavy to be in. I am so happy that the industry is slowing down for the holidays now and I can relax and not feel super judged. I need a break. I've been feeling weighed down by rejection lately, but I know it's all a process. Rejection is necessary. I am growing. Even when I feel weak, I am improving.
Thank you so much my lovely patrons. I write with joyful tears in my eyes that you allow me to truly be honest and my raw self. Thank you so much for the amazing support and uplifting me when I am down. I am ever so grateful to be surrounded with your love and I only hope I can show you how much your support by writing to you often and doing everything I can to show my appreciation. If you guys have any ideas on how I can improve on showing gratitude, please let me know. Just know that your contribution is really helping me grow as an actor by providing me the education from renowned teachers and mentors and being able to collaborate with photographers and artists. You are all really helping me be able to get to audition to audition and get the proper training to compete in such a ruthless industry. Thank you so much for believing in me and helping me get all the resources I need to survive in the cutthroat industry. It's crazy I am competing with actual celebrities I used to watch when I was younger for actual roles now. Sometimes I don't think I'm cut out for this, but I am reminded every day by your support that I really can believe in myself. I love you all so much. I am so thankful. This year is the best yet, and I can't wait to see what next year will bring. Hope you all stay with me ♡♡♡
Love with all my heart,
Jeannie
Comments
The only thing I can think to say is that every time you're rejected, it just means you had the courage to try. You're beautiful, a ray of light, and very talented. Don't let these kind of things bring you down. Learn from them and adapt. You're going to be huge some day.
Playing on Normal
2019-11-20 00:50:26 +0000 UTCI have found with my own recent struggles that being knocked down by life is the truest way for me to grow and to show my resolve by getting up everytime and trying again. It hurts sometimes and it sucks always, but I have no doubt that you are strong enough to keep going. Your positive energy when I was in a rough place really helped me. I am glad to support you in any way possible keep your chin up and know that all of us here will always have your back.
Tim Smith
2019-11-20 00:15:45 +0000 UTCI know it's uncomfurtible, but we all experience setbacks from time to time. And those setbacks end up defining us as well as our successes. Trust me, I really do understand. I am currently climbing up and rebuilding myself from some very bad times. And rediscovered my confidence. By the way I got excited the other day when I saw you on the big screen in a movie trailer. Then I had to explain to my friends why I reacted like I did
Jógvan Jákupsson
2019-11-19 23:51:37 +0000 UTCIt sounds like you had a rough go of it 😔 but as the saying goes “ a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step” . You will get to where you going and through these experiences it’ll make you a stronger more determined person than you already are ☺️ That said it’s always good to take a break from it all and just unwind free from the pressure and stress of LA. I know you’ll do great things these coming months and years; and I can say I’m very glad to be part of your journey through it all ☺️ May Fortuna be forever on your side 🙇🏽♂️🙇🏽♂️ And looking radiant in the photo 🖤☺️🙇🏽♂️
Brandon
2019-11-19 23:33:51 +0000 UTCThe only failure is when we don’t learn from our experiences. Don’t think of them as failures, think of them as lessons. Keep auditioning, keep writing and keep working on improving your craft. Maybe pick up some scenes or monologues and record yourself performing them? You don’t have to post them, just get some feedback from people you trust. It’s great to see you posting regularly again, that’s the biggest thing for me. I like all the stuff you post be they pics, messages, live streams etc.
Doug
2019-11-19 23:03:28 +0000 UTCHey Jeannie, sorry that the callbacks didn;t work out for you, but don;t let that get you down. See the fact that you got the callbacks in the first place as a positive step in the right direction. So you had a couple of off days, nobody's perfect. Like in any job/profession sometimes we just need to get away from it all, recharge the batteries so to speak. Enjoy some time with your family and then come back refreshed and ready to take on the world again. I just had a month off work and it just helped me so much to switch off and not think about anything work related. Take care of yourself, if crying helps do that, just get the emotions out, regroup and strive for the success that you so richly deserve.
ricky zjawinski
2019-11-19 23:03:02 +0000 UTCI wouldn't say you were a failure. You probably did really good on your auditions. Even the greatest of actors and actresses don't get the part they auditioned for. You could probably google so many times actors or actresses you look up to didn't get the part they auditioned for. They didn't give up. So you shouldn't either. We know you can do this and you should know that you can do it too. Just continue to do your best! You will always have all of our support!
Johnathan Bond
2019-11-19 23:01:04 +0000 UTCnothing wrong with crying Jeannie, it cleanses the soul, I'm 47 and still cry, especially at silly things, like songs from the 80's thhat I haven't heard in years, or tv programmes like Neighbours, an Australian soap, so it doesn'tmatter how old or young you are, crying is good for you, and you always feel better after having a good cry, so let those tears flow babe, I'd give you a shoulder to cry on if I was in La,, oh, and by the way, love your photo, gorgeous as ever, and getting more sexy with every pic. You will hit the big time soon, I'm sure of it, just keep your chin up. xx
John McGoldrick
2019-11-19 22:54:01 +0000 UTCTough news about those two roles, but if we look at the big picture, there are always more roles. It never stops, and even these that don't pan out go in your back pocket as experience helping to prepare you for all those future opportunities. Not getting the role isn't a loss. Getting as far as you did is the win. You're amazing. As for what you can do on the Patreon, I think you have been doing a great job over the last month. Timely and interesting posts with great photos. Who can ask for more? And on top of that, the content of the posts is so compelling. It is so interesting to follow along on this adventure and here about how this is going for you. From the big wins, to the smaller wins like today. Your openness and honesty is a gift, and it is the foundation of the relationship you are cultivating with your patrons. We care about you, and we are rooting for you. Which is the long way of saying, you are doing great! I hope you have a wonderful evening! :D
Brett Love
2019-11-19 22:53:39 +0000 UTCBut seriously you are a true star and a good friend :)
Asim Pollard
2019-11-19 22:53:25 +0000 UTC
