TL;DR I am in the process of trying to revert this Patreon's payment structure back to “per-creation,” the $30/$60 tiers are being phased out, and the patron-only streams will no longer be “attached” to when I upload videos. In the second half of the post, I dump a video-script's worth of what I've learned about the ADHD + burnout feedback loop.
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2022-12-16 23:11:14 +0000 UTC View PostHey guys!!! Here's the in-between "highlights" video I mentioned earlier. I found it cathartic to just get all these clips out there so I can clear out my head and hard drives for the future. I'm posting this from an airplane, so there won't be a patreon-only stream in the near future, but I'm thinking I'll schedule one when I post the next medic video update. See you soon!
I hope life is...
2021-11-09 19:48:51 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey guys! This update's a long time coming. The last post I made on here was quite hopeful, and for good reason. Acknowledging my issues publicly has allowed me to make new forms of progress that have me more hopeful than ever. Attached to this post is a 15~ minute video-ramble clarifying my progress alongside some Medic gameplay. The first 3 minutes are a little mopey, but hey that's life! I a...
2021-09-03 00:00:05 +0000 UTC View PostWelp! Hello everybody, I am posting. I usually keep my mental health updates insulated here on Patreon, but I've been thinking this one over for a long time and decided to make a full-on Youtube community post about where my head's been. If you'd like the full rundown, here it is: https://www.youtube.com...
2021-03-20 19:24:11 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello my favorite people, I hope your holidays went well! I am here to report that November/December sorta blurred together for me this year. I'm not sure what it is exactly, but the holidays seem to put a dent in my productivity.
In light of what felt like two half-months, I'm not charging Patrons this month - partly out of responsibility and partly because y'all deserve...
2020-12-30 20:42:34 +0000 UTC View Post
Hi everyone!!! It's been a couple months and I figured I'd update you as pre-production comes to an end. I've said most of what I'll say here in the above video but it's like this: I've recorded over 1000 Medic clips and am still in a competitive Highlander season of Medic. All the clips have been organized into subject matter with notes on them about possible SFM bits. I have a good sens...
2020-10-31 18:39:19 +0000 UTC View Post
ALRIGHT FINALLY I'M ACTUALLY "DONE" and can look to the FUTURE! I can't believe how much there was to say about Demoman, he just has so much going for him - I'm doubtful that the Medic videos will be this long but I'll probably find a way lol. Thank you for the umptieth time for sticking with me throughout this nightmare of a production cycle, here's hoping this is as stressful as it ever gets!...
2020-09-05 18:04:38 +0000 UTC View Post
I can't believe this is finally here!!! As I write this I'm overcome with a feeling of relief that seemed like it would never come. This has perhaps been the most difficult stretch of my return to Youtube, but I'm proud to have blasted through it and hopeful for what comes next. Thank you x100 to every single one of you for being patient this year; I hope that this 22.5 minute entry into the se...
2020-08-08 20:21:10 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello again everyone! You've done well to survive another month of 2020. Whatever corner of the Internet you're in, there has been much news to soak in, and I truly hope y'all are remembering to protect your mental health.
I'll keep this somewhat brief to avoid repeating myself: 14 minutes of the video's runtime is completely edited and "ready" for upload. Unfortunately, I've run in...
2020-07-07 20:40:44 +0000 UTC View Post
It goes without saying that current events are of a historic degree. The situation in the US is jaw-dropping, and as a citizen it's hard not to be obsessed whether that means keeping track of the news or arguing with relatives. I tried to stay focused on work, but the situation has only escalated and I've been immersed in learning as much history behind the situation as I can.
In these tr...
2020-06-06 21:27:19 +0000 UTC View Post
Finally we're on the home stretch!!! Now that I've got the more headache-inducing parts of the video done, I'm bouta buckle down and blast this video out before end of May. I swear it feels like I have to completely relearn the creative process every time I make a new episode. "How tf did I write a script last time??" "How did I animate a minute-long scene??". It's frustrating but maybe that's ...
2020-05-05 18:02:25 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello friends!!! I'm happy to be posting here again! Firstly, I'm sorry I didn't post at the start of the month - I wanted to have some cool custom-model previews to show, but due to the virus my model-maker has been super short for time... it goes without saying that life's pretty wild right now, BUT I do have two quick sequences here I'm proud of and I hope they give you a taste :) &nbs...
2020-03-28 20:59:53 +0000 UTC View PostHi everybody! This past holiday season I tried many new things in my work and daily schedule, the most notable being my livestreaming on Twitch. While I'm happy to say that these past few months have taught me a lot about myself, I'm less happy about how much work actually got done towards my Youtube this month. For that reason, I can't justify charging y'all. Your support means too much to me ...
2020-01-27 03:41:07 +0000 UTC View Post
♥♥♥ Hello!!!!!! I hope you're all starting the new year strong and had a good (or at least tolerable) holiday season. My holiday season was honestly not that relaxing but maybe that's just part of getting older lol, not sure. Attached to this post is a small compilation of the most ridiculous crits I've gotten as Demoman.
With that being said, I am still in the process of writing th...
2020-01-04 20:14:16 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello hello hello! As promised, I've made a little something out of my recent streaming journey. Unfortunately, the mario maker charity stream was scrapped for time, but that doesn't mean it'll never happen.
Getting this video out means I can now get right to work on "How it FEELS to Play Demoman," and I'm excited to push forward with all this newfound momentum and support. Look out for u...
2019-12-03 19:00:58 +0000 UTC View PostWOOOOOoOOOOOoOO! This is seriously such a morale boost you guys, I was starting to wonder if we'd ever get here! It's just in time too since I dumped a lot of money on improved audio gear, and AMD is about to (hopefully) drop the 3950X processor which will require a bit of a computer rebuild. Honestly I've had this computer case since before my hiatus and I think it's time for a change, especia...
2019-11-07 19:35:09 +0000 UTC View Post
https://www.twitch.tv/lazyframerate Hello friends, as foretold I am going to do the patron-only stream now. For future reference, the patron-only stream will now occur one hour after a video upload in place of the "fan meeting" reward (i'll update the rewards in a sec)
On video progress: for a whi...
2019-11-02 18:03:57 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello to all you beautiful people! I've got ANOTHER 17 minute video for you here featuring the clips I just couldn't let go of no matter how hard I tried.
IMPORTANT UPDATE ON REWARDS!~ Getting this video out on time was quite the challenge! You can bet I'm a bit sleepless again and I've had a thought about the current Patreon rewards: I'm so consistently deplet...
2019-10-29 23:00:51 +0000 UTC View Post
As promised, here it is! What a journey that was. I'll be in the #fan-meeting voice chat for a bit and will happily answer questions here or there! Thank you so much again for your patience and support <3
Small update: I'm on a quest to both release the Behind the Scenes video next weekend AND get Affiliate status on Twitch before mid-November, so I'll probably be doing some random str...
2019-10-19 19:00:15 +0000 UTC View Post
Before the video releases, I'd just like give a genuine thanks for all of your patience and an apology for not updating this page between here and July.
~Excuses~
I'll keep my excuses brief: I had to move location again and have recently realized that I've been grappling with un-diagnosed ADHD my whole life. It's been a bit of a rollercoaster to realize this, but no...
2019-10-12 23:25:59 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello, and welcome to my Patreon post! Somewhere in the process of making SFM shitposts, it appears that I have achieved an elementary grasp of animation. The GIF attached to this post features what is probably my first serious full-body animation? It feels like I've been avoiding any kind of "run" or "leg" animation up until this point, but I've learned recently t...
2019-07-14 20:29:52 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey all! Here's an in-betweener for your enjoyment. Some of you may recognize a few clips in this video from the Patron stream! Like I said in my last Patreon post, I am probably going to make the next video like this entirely from a week-long Patron stream that will occur after "How it FEELS to Play Pyro" is released. I won't be streaming after this video here, but I will be hanging out a bit ...
2019-06-01 18:03:38 +0000 UTC View PostAfter the unexpected success of the Minecraft patron-only stream on my secondary channel, I am highly considering trying to fully stream my next casual gameplay for my main channel.
If I streamed ~4-5 hours every day for a week and you knew that these streams would be making the main channel, would that make you more likely to tune in? Sections of chat are likely to be used in ...
2019-05-29 02:33:33 +0000 UTC View Post
HEEYYEY!! How are y'all doin? I'm finally in that "working rhythm" I've been chasing since I moved to my own place. I've successfully worked a 200-hour-month but honestly I think I could do even better. So much of that 200 hours was collecting gameplay for "How it FEELS to Play Pyro" as well as my upcoming medium-effort Far Cry video that it almost feels illegitimate.
So ...
2019-05-25 20:50:40 +0000 UTC View Post
Might be doing more minecraft and even Far Cry 5 (which might go into a main-channel video)
2019-04-27 18:05:36 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello hello! Here's my second Behind-the-Scenes video. It's definitely different than the Engineer one; I'm curious what you all think of it!
I didn't sleep last night so I won't be in the patron chat for more than 30 minutes... BUT:
Edit: No stream this week, I will stream next week on 4/27!
2019-04-20 18:02:54 +0000 UTC View Post
WOW I FORGOT TO POST THIS SO I WILL BE STREAMING AN HOUR LONGER
Honestly I have never played Minecraft properly so I thought that might be a fun idea. Drop on by and say hello or ask any questions, I'm all ears! I've thoroughly tested the stream last night but that hasn't guaranteed anything before lmao boy I hope this works smoothly
AAAAAA it's finally finished and published! This video fought me right until the bitter end, going through almost 10 re-render in Premiere.
As I've written before, this was the most difficult script I've ever written, and I'll be so happy to finally hear everyone's feedback on it. In my last post, I wrote that I was just about to move - well, the move was successful, but then they immedia...
2019-03-23 18:01:54 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello friends! I am hopeful that this will be the last update of this kind. As many of you know, I’m moving into my own place so that I can completely focus on producing videos. This move will happen in two weeks, and I’m extremely excited. Unfortuna...
2019-01-31 20:09:24 +0000 UTC View Post
Hey everyone, welcome to this little post. (Picture is from the upcoming sniper video)
Recently, I've expected too much of myself by wanting to have "How it FEELS to play Sniper" out by December 11th (because on the 12th I'm going on a short trip). While this would have been possible if I worked roughly 8-10 hours a day nonstop since November 15th, the pressure of this expectation actually cause...
2018-12-01 19:04:16 +0000 UTC View Post