Trauma talks/
Sometimes it leaks right out of my mouth/
I don't want you to walk away
You already know what this is all about
I'm gettin kinda tired
Putting myself out there like a jar of clay
I'm hopin that you never see me cry
I'd be a dreamer if you stayed
/ how could you Love my body this broken
I think I already see you...
2022-10-30 20:21:59 +0000 UTC View PostDruids lived in the woods where I walked, listening to Grimes thinking about the way you talk, and I looked deep into your Emerald eyes, but I never had a heart to make you mine. I'm watching the water and how it falls, and she's singing about butterfly wings; I'm thinking about how you joked that I was your favorite wife even though in real life you don't like polyamory. You showed me ...
2022-10-30 20:16:57 +0000 UTC View PostDragonfly wing and butterfly streams, I wonder what things you have seen; I'm waist deep in the river like an emerald offering…
And all I can hear is the water
All of my thoughts finally gone
I feel the Gold and the history bathing my hips in a song
There's a strength DRAWN from the boulders, there's a loving LULL from the sun and when I lay back...
2022-10-30 20:12:28 +0000 UTC View PostI miss a love I've never known
And I miss the ocean because I call it home
I miss myself and the light I shone
Yeah I miss a love I've never known.
I miss the city lights on the sound
Cold saltwater plunges after messing around
Bare feet touching wet grass on the ground
Yeah and I miss the Salish sound.
I miss your kiss and our ar...
2022-10-30 20:07:35 +0000 UTC View PostCardigans and crop tops, the way you say my name and my heart stops
I guess I'm just a sucker for the sage and the incense
Emeralds in your eyes I get a little too intense
You're playing ODESZA in your bedroom
I'm stoned outside watching flowers bloom
Hold me real tight so I won't escape
Lock me in the house and fuck me all day
You got ...
2022-10-30 17:55:16 +0000 UTC View Post
Wow, I didn't realize I recorded this at 1:11 PM.! Gratitude shifts everything so that all the little divine synchronicity's shine so bright and make you forget the trials and tribulations of life with a high-level spinal cord injury.
I got to hold a little dog today for the first time in two years. The last dog I ever held was my dog latte at Harborview in Seattle during rehab there. He ...
2022-10-30 04:00:50 +0000 UTC View Post
… I'll be making new content on Monday. XOXO
elle
Just a quadriplegic Woman dreaming of someone doing unforgivable things
2022-10-30 00:31:22 +0000 UTC View Post… baby if you want to leave
Come to California
Be a freak like me too
2022-10-29 04:18:31 +0000 UTC View Post
I get so wet when you say my name
Fantasize about your hands on my waist
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2022-10-29 03:24:53 +0000 UTC View PostThe Chanda center in Lakewood Colorado is where I am able to receive therapies: physical therapy, massage, and my acupuncturist who works here comes to my house every week because she is able to travel.
There is no other CENTER like this for people with disabilities to receive excellent ongoing physical therapy etc. In all of the US. You have to get legislature to approve so that Medicaid...
2022-10-29 01:07:26 +0000 UTC View PostPutting my oral fixation to use…
2022-10-28 23:02:11 +0000 UTC View PostWe use a sling and a lift to transfer me from my wheelchair to A massage table.
In another video of just me talking, I explain how rehab for me it's basically physical therapy and massage centered on relieving my muscle tightness and manipulating the muscles to achieve more blood flow and release toxins. Because I am a quadriplegic with the highest level spinal cord injury, I am unable to move anything below my neck voluntarily. There is a tiny amount of finger movement bu...
2022-10-28 22:29:09 +0000 UTC View Post
She's precocious, and she knows just what it takes to make a pro blush///
2022-10-28 03:20:59 +0000 UTC View Post
I'm emotional when I look at these photos.
I miss my former self.
I'm upset that this all could've been avoided. I'm worried about other Young patients who are in vulnerable situations without anyone around to speak up for them. I'll explain exactly what happened, but for now, this is why my left eyebrow can't grow hair like my right one…
2022-10-28 00:45:51 +0000 UTC View Post
I've been paralyzed for almost three years, but within the last year my shoulder blades seem to be waking up and can often present themselves as the BANE of my existence. Once upon a time, an ex lover of mine told me that my spirit animal was the butterfly. This resonated with me at the time because in my late teens I was diagnosed with anorexia and during treatment and recovery purple butterfl...
2022-10-27 21:56:35 +0000 UTC View Post
…Domination
elle
PS Watch the attached uploads below;)
2022-10-27 21:30:44 +0000 UTC View Post
I'll probably end up just calling a dispensary and asking around for a private practice doctor who can give me a license… evidently even though Colorado is known for being one of the first States to legalize marijuana, the federal medical system is still completely living under a rock and I am getting absolutely nowhere with Medicaid doctors. Another annoying thing is that I have expressed mu...
2022-10-27 20:09:29 +0000 UTC View Post
It makes me feel so good to share myself with you all.
This disability is not easy. However I'm finding it's gettinr increasingly easier to be open and vulnerable with you.
I hope, if nothing else, I can convey some of my inner world… that even though my disability does consume a lot of my time, I'm still the same person I was before.
I'll be posting a lot more on my sec...
2022-10-27 19:38:03 +0000 UTC View Post
I have this fear
And great elation
I am just the shimmering water bound
Fin of the untouchable orca
Underneath
The security where you sit, admiringly.
Noticing me with full adoration
Because in seconds of time
I will be gone, maybe forever, into the deep.
I enjoy this wild fascination,
For I am still a creature
More at home with the oc...
2022-10-27 05:09:24 +0000 UTC View Post
