Oh yeahhhh
There was a beautiful quote I read by Andrea Gibson today about how people are essentially like planets we get to explore every time we interact with a sense of wonder and appreciation because no one person has an end… I recently blurted out to a friend that I am an eternal mystery and I don't think this is presumptuous to assume that all people have a wealth of experiences a...
2022-11-17 05:22:14 +0000 UTC View Post
I have a couple videos to upload on here for you guys but I have a splitting headache and I can't figure out right now why Patreon isn't really working at the moment. As far as videos go I'll have to wait till tomorrow to try and figure it out.
I finally found extra small jeans that fit me! Even though my hips are sometimes a challenge to get over when we are putting them on… my waist i...
2022-11-17 04:49:09 +0000 UTC View Post
Today we cleaned around the area of my pacer to check on it and see if it was still bleeding or looking very bruised.
Thankfully, it looks much better although I am still nervous about it and finally reached a respiratory therapist who recommended that I see my primary doctor because it's a skin issue. However, I have palms with my primary doctor as you all know. QUALMS. That means I don'...
2022-11-16 04:47:16 +0000 UTC View Post
Making content with the purpose of bringing more pleasure and awareness about disability to the world is so therapeutic. For me it's a way I can give back and feel productive. I also like imagining all of us going to burning man and loving on each other no matter what our ability level is.
2022-11-16 04:36:46 +0000 UTC View PostLife's more fun when you keep falling in love with yourself and sharing yourself with others regardless of your abilities.
Love,
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2022-11-16 04:13:33 +0000 UTC View PostHere one day, gone the next.
I'm not just a job, I'm a person with feelings.
Abandonment issues and fear of losing people runs strong in my veins after severe trauma, losing most of my abilities as well as a whole life and lifestyle and career and social life all at once.
I just want people to stay.
Am I that much of a burden?
Am I that difficult to take care of? 2022-11-16 02:54:51 +0000 UTC View Post
I got this question SO often as an able bodied partygoer. In bars or gatherings people always wondered if I would talk with an accent, so sometimes I would just a confuse them and tell them my name was Svetlana.
I know, I'm weird. I'm so weird that when it's below freezing I decide to go outside and look for bumps to go over because my theory is the more I vibrate and shake around my body...
2022-11-15 05:47:04 +0000 UTC View Post
Soon I'll be having a caregiver I feel more comfortable with in the evenings, which I'm excited for because now I get to play with my vibrator a lot more. Technically it's a healing wand specifically made for pelvic trauma, as my body is very sensitive and I didn't want to shock my system the first time I experienced an O again after one and a half years.
I was still shaking and quivering...
2022-11-15 05:34:38 +0000 UTC View PostFor some reason my attachments are not loading! I do all of this from my phone so it can be a little tricky sometimes…
2022-11-15 03:24:03 +0000 UTC View PostWhen a singer or artist gets you through a lot of trauma… it's only right to memorize and sing their songs all the time.
Trying to get my voice stronger… more of this song in the attached videos!
2022-11-15 03:05:55 +0000 UTC View PostScroll down for my first post about using the stand up machine! Stimulating my muscles to move while I am upright to simulate walking.
2022-11-13 21:29:49 +0000 UTC View PostThis is a machine at the Peak center in Englewood Colorado. Electrodes are placed on me to trigger a muscle response and move me electrically.
Because so much effort and breath is involved when I stand up like this, I have to go back on the ventilator to make sure that I am breathing properly. This video was taken in the summer this year, before I started practicing breathing on my own. I...
2022-11-13 20:55:19 +0000 UTC View PostThis is a video from earlier in the year, me riding a bike at the Craig hospital Peak center gym . Electrodes are put on my muscle groups and electrically stimulated so that they move and push my feet against the petals.
This is a really good work out for not only my legs but also my lungs and I usually have to go back on the ventilator while I am on the bike because it takes so much air....
2022-11-13 19:48:23 +0000 UTC View PostI think it would be cool, eventually when I have a partner, to film together on here. Slow make out sessions, massaging and cuddling… talking about practical things like how to have sex with a disabled person
2022-11-13 07:21:31 +0000 UTC View Post
Can we just skip the winter??!
Most quadriplegics find it really difficult to stay warm in colder environments because we can't regulate our body temperature or move around to keep the blood flowing. My favorite season is summer so living in Colorado is not the best case scenario for my body.
So important to move around and massage my feet because if I ever do regain movement hopefully they won't be drooping
2022-11-12 18:45:14 +0000 UTC View Post
People don't take suicidal disabled people seriously because they don't think disabled people could actually take their life into their own hands.
The truth is that wanting to die is an inner fight, for anyone. You can die on the inside long before your outer body deteriorates.
Check on your disabled friends. Maybe all they need to keep from downward spiral ling mentally today is ju...
2022-11-12 04:40:08 +0000 UTC View PostLife would be so much easier if a hot, moderately tall Australian man could throw my body into bed each night… but you can't have it all. I digress.
2022-11-12 04:22:26 +0000 UTC View PostIt's starting to get dark here at 5 o'clock! And it's fucking freezing. I'm going to have to take up mouth painting or something.…
2022-11-12 03:16:15 +0000 UTC View PostI met such a beautiful soul today. I feel so lucky to be surrounded by literal angels.
2022-11-12 03:12:48 +0000 UTC View PostI had a great PT session and the new massage therapist I got to meet today was incredible… I felt the Scorpio Energy intensely today in a good way. Love all you Scorpios out there!
2022-11-12 02:34:35 +0000 UTC View PostMy thoughts before going to physical therapy…
2022-11-12 02:30:29 +0000 UTC View Post
