Elle Rose

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Right before my physical therapy appointment… see the attachmentS for more videos.

I'm new to all this and would love to know what subscribers from both tears would like to see more of.!

There will be a video coming out next month of me receiving a sound healing treatment from a new massage therapist I just met.! She does Reiki end other modalities of energy healing. I have been w...

Last night singing

Just a heads up for you all, people don't usually talk well let alone sing on a ventilator. I've always loved singing, it's probably the most therapeutic activity I could do able-bodied or disabled, although I used to play guitar, piano, and cello.

When I was in the ICU, I couldn't talk at all because I was intubated so I communicated with the nurses buy mouthing words and using an alphab...

Shaving my p***y

Living with a bush is difficult when you rely on other people to clean and care for the whole area. We joke that one of these days we'll let it grow really long and then shave a landing strip or something.

Medical stuff: how I cough with a cough assist

I know it's disgusting but it's the only way to get the mucus out of the tracheostomy. It doesn't help that I've always had a lot of allergies and mucus ever since I was a kid. I guess they also say that if a normally healthy person goes on a ventilator they get an accumulation of mucus because they have an invasive hole in their throat. Makes sense!

Morning stretching

Don't ask…
Just kidding, ask away:)

I was a yogi before my injury and my joints were/are hyper mobile. It's nice that I'm so flexible because it makes range of motion easy for my caregivers, and sometimes my joints will pop when stretched a certain way. Usually when we pull on my arms my right leg goes up in the air. I wanted to get a video of that but for some reason my leg didn't w...

Photoshoot

I can't move on my own from my neck down.

I can't keep warm. Unless I'm in my room with the heater on full blast.

Right now I still live in Colorado. It gets so freezing and I spend every day stuck in my room unless I am going to physical therapy or some thing. Being stuck in a room can be nice, if you have a lover or if it's raining… but there isn't really a lot of rain in Colora...

Graphic picture: diaphragm pacer Open wound

Although the diaphragm pacer helps me to be able to breathe without the ventilator, it is technically an open wound and these tiny electrical wires are going into my body. Today, while changing and cleaning the pacer area, we were rather disturbed to find that one of the sites looks bruised and was bleeding a little. I can't feel very much pain in that area because I can hardly feel anything on...

Acupuncture video/Red light therapy/ cranial sacral massage

This part of acupuncture is focused on a spinal cord protocol which utilizes red light therapy and my own imagination to visualize spinal cord healing and movement.

I always imagine that I am at home in the Pacific Northwest, running along the beach barefoot with my dog.

That's where I wanna be

Accu and cupping pics

Scroll down to watch a more in-depth video explaining the benefits of cupping specifically as it applies to people with paralysis.

In-depth acupuncture: functionality and details of cupping

In this video, my excellent acupuncturist Yvonne explain why and how cupping works.

Getting in the massage chair is becoming much easier every time, although at the beginning I struggled with my breathing and was worried that my blood pressure would Drop and I would pass out in such an upright position. Thankfully, with the help of my care team I have gotten more comfortable with the whol...

In my shower chair

This shower chair makes it possible for me to be cleaned properly every day, and in my opinion every quadriplegic should have access to this kind of accessible equipment. Many of us may not be able to afford something like this, which is surprisingly quite expensive and not covered by medicaid. Craig Hospital in Englewood Colorado helped me to acquire this one with the help of their foundation....

How we put on the ventilator at night

After dinner every night, I go back on the ventilator before my caregiver leaves for the evening. I don't get normal oxygen saturation so even though I can be on the diaphragm pacer during the day, I need good ventilation at night so that I get good sleep and my oxygen level stay normal.

It's really simple, we just turn on the ventilator and then turn off the diaphragm pacer and secure &n...

Boulder pics

Explored a little today… I was always finding new cool places either hikes or in the city before my injury. Driving and getting away from the house helps me to feel more independent even though I am still a dependent in most arias.

Scroll down for more explanation

Thrive, Boulder Colorado

Scroll down for more of my footage… not a whole lot because I got super anxious and we ended up just driving around.

Trying to be normal

… and somewhat succeeding? I'm not gonna lie some days it is very difficult being disabled with such a high spinal cord injury. Although my injury did not affect my mental state, literally, it did actually do a lot of harm to my self-esteem and feelings of worthiness. I'm still getting used to this body and I feel so trapped in it at times. On the inside I am screaming and kickboxing and danc...

Out and about in Boulder

I me trying very hard not to have a panic attack. I guess I succeeded! Anxiety is no joke and as someone who does not take prescribed medication sometimes everything going on in my mind and heart and soul is just too much. It's too damn much

Boulder day trip

I had planned on having a day full of doing things in Boulder, but when I got there I had so much social anxiety I could barely Drive my chair out of the van. Hey it's moments like these that we don't really talk about in the disabled community. Those moments when you want to the able to move about in society as an invisible able-bodied creature that doesn't draw attention with a huge wheelchai...

Haleys comet continueD

But you're all it takes for me to break a promise

Silly me, to fall in love with you

Haleys comet

But in my dreams I seem to be more honest
And I must admit, you've been in quite a few

SCAMMER ALERT

Some guy who calls himself JUAN has been reposting my pictures on a site called deviant art. His username on there is:notrealjuanro

I reported him but if any of you follow other people on deviant art please report this guy! Not cool dude! He's also posting Photos of other disabled women on there.

How we clean my p***y

I'm still very sensitive in this area, so any kind of stimulation even during washing can cause me to spasm.

Before we were able to remodel my bathroom with the help of an association called home builders in the Denver Metro area, showering and cleaning me was a much bigger or deal. When I was in facilities, they would not get me up to shower me let alone provide a commode chair in order ...

Hip bones

I'm going to be sharing more about how we change my catheter and tracheostomy, and those videos will be a little more graphic…
I'm wondering, scandalous folks, if you have any advice for my sexy photos. Too sexy? Not sexy enough? I'll do my best not to take it personally ha ha.

Ablest America

TTHEY say I'm symptomatic

Might just be telepathic

I'm humming a song to the moss

And Redwood trees.

I hear a voice and it's not mine

There's a bird in a branch above a fault line

Something with me on a dirt trail of the hillside,

I wonder why my bones ache in the daylight.

I climb up the mountain but it's just a dream

I wak...

Nighttime positioning

Pillows… Lots and lots of pillows!
Because I cannot voluntarily move below my neck, I rely on wedges, one supporting my lower half and the other in between my shoulder and hips. Two pillows go in between my knees as I lay on my side eventually right before I get fully tucked in as they say. Two pillows go underneath each arm and then one under my head but I have two rolled up blankets on t...

Sultry Saturday

Sometimes I feel so useless and unproductive in this body. Making content for all of you gives me a feeling of purposefulness. You remind me why I share myself instead of hiding.

Play with me

What am I thinking about?

Fishnets

Don't think that I can explain it

What can I say, it's complicated

Leather and lace

I want you forever even if we're not together
Scars on my body so I can take you wherever

Am I out of my head,

Am I out of my mind?

If you only knew, the bad things I like

Feeling myself

I actually feel very healed today.
What a strange, good feeling!z

I believe anything is possible.

I accept myself as I am, while still believing my body can change and adapt in incredible functions my mind cannot comprehend.

These colors, green and orange, remind me for some reason of GANESH, the remover of obstacles in Hindu worship. In fact, a couple nights ago an elephan...

How my wheelchair works

Again, pretty breathless today. I still use my diaphragm pacer to breathe during the day. Beginning to practice breathing without it, but I have to remember every day to remind my caregivers to help me with it.
I'm going to be introducing my caregivers to you as they would all like to be a part of this! Lisa helped film for me today, and I am demonstrating how are use a cheek switch and sip ...